Michele

Lisa Marie, I'm just answering without quoting because I'm a bit too lazy to go back a page. You indicated your belief that there are extreme highs which take place in a bipolar person. That's not always the case, although that's what is commonly believed. There are many actions which can be considered "manic" (the original term was "manic depressive"), and they include extravagant expenditure, working without sleep, tight, exclusionary focus (not realizing days have gone by without eating or washing, for example), and agitiation to the extreme. By that I mean everything pisses someone off - the air gets to be too heavy, the phone is too loud, et cetera - and an explosion of self will generally take place. Brain diseases like depression and bipolar are widely misunderstood by most people who haven't seen it/experienced it/loved someone with it...and often, misunderstood by those people, as well. They can be easily - albeit deadly - hidden from public view (I did that for years) and are often misdiagnosed at the beginning (most bipolars are misdiagnosed as despressives in the initial stages), and medication is a must for them. It is also the sufferer's responsibility to manage their illness so as to not present an episode and endanger people (or themselves) around them...and that's a tough, tough thing to do. Anyway, I just wanted to add a little info to the post... I still think that given the circumstances which have been reported, the officers did the right thing. It was a clean shoot, and sadly, they will have to live with it for the rest of their lives...as will his wife...and all their families. It's a terrible situation from any perspective it's looked at. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

The only injuries being reported are 4 (critical/serious)) in a car which was trapped under the wing of the plane. There was another car which either was hit by or who hit the plane but there are no injuries reported there. It looks like the nose gear collapsed, likely during the breach of the fencing. Weather at the time was heavy snow and some wind. The longest runway at Midway is 6,500 feet, which doesn't allow for much room for errors. There is speculation that there may have been ice on the runway, thus preventing traction of the plane's landing gear. Further indication is that there was extremely low visibility. There was a small (very limited) spill of fuel, but no homes nor businesses are being evactuated (Midway is located in a neigborhood rather than on the periphery of a city). Planes are being diverted to O'Hare, with delays now upwards of 6-7 hours. And that's about all I know. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Thanks for that, Da Vinci. I appreciate you catching my back. And Rebecca, thanks for the compliment. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Marks, I do understand. Very well, although my particular brain disease isn't bipolar. I am glad to hear you've got somewhat of a handle on it; it can be one of the hardest illnesses to diagnose, let alone get properly medicated for. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

It was good...and yours sounds delightful as well. Hot chocolate - adult style - is vastly underrated. No liquor for me tonight, though...I've got work in the morning, so I've got to have a clear head. Enjoy! Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

#1 [Red]Jingle Bells 2 is Walking Through a Winter Wonderland #3 is Santa Claus is Coming to Town (I think) #4 is Joy to the World #5 [red}Grandma Got Run Over By A Reindeer #6 [Red] Oh Christmas Tree/ Tannenbaum (just guessing here) #7 I'm Dreaming of a White Christmas #8 Patridge in a Pear Tree #9 What Child is This? #10 We Three Kings #11 Deck the Halls #12 I Saw Three Ships #13 O' Holy Night #14 #15 Away in the Manger #16 On the First Day of Christmas, my True Love Gave to Me... (don't know the name) The Twelve Days of Christmas #17 #18 #19 Chestnuts Roasting on an Open Fire #20 #21 #22 Silent Night #23 #24 I'll keep working on the rest... Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Jeanne, how about you have the leftovers. Nah, he won't need the two of us...either you or I...not both; that wouldn't be fair on our parts. He'd be powdered milque in no time. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Seesh. No, she wanted to get her cell phone and call the TV station. BTW, ReBirth, I completely got your point. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Why yes. Now that you mention it. And me, a woman, too. And should you want to "hit a woman", come on over. I'll cheerfully allow you the first swipe free. After that, all bets are off. Sound good? Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Pinter is pretty weird. Have you seen his work? It's really strange. My father just completed a run of one of his plays called "The Homecoming" and it was just too bizarre. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Paj, sorry about that. I just read through the thread, and posted to the last person to add my reply. Not directed at you, just in a general sense. I am certain that missing a dose of medication did not precipitate this whatsoever, and I agree, it's a clean shoot. I hate to call it a "good" shoot, because imho no shooting is ever good...but it was indeed clean. Ian, in your own charming, sociopathic way, you asked... Could it possibly be that I know so much because it's my line of work? Or maybe because someone near and dear to me has a brain illness? Does it have to be because I'm a "nutter"? Frankly, how I know is not your business, but yes, I have a chemical imbalance which affects my ability to think and to assess reality in a proper way. When the chemicals are balanced (as they have been for years), I'm just as competent as anyone else (and in some cases, moreso.). If I go off my medication, then yes, there is a risk for problems. Thankfully, I'm just fine. Is your prurient curiousity satisfied? Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Psychotropic medication just doesn't work like that. Say I forget to take my dose. If I had been taking it regularly, there is enough in my system to keep me balanced until I had a chance to take the next dose. Similarly, if you take a dose, it doesn't mean you'll automatically calm down and be balanced again. It can take weeks to reach the proper level of dosage...weeks. And it can take weeks to have it completely leave your system. It's not like a valium, or other sedative. It just doesn't work that way. If someone was yelling about having a bomb in a bag, and then reaches for that bag, it's pretty clear there is a clear and present danger. The air marshalls did the correct thing. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

It is decadent. Delicious. Delightful. De...well, really good. G'night, all. I'm headed to my bed... Ciels- Micehle ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

I draw, but nothing which is recognizable. I prefer to use my camera. Sorry. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

But I don't have any cashews. I only have pistachios, which have defeated me soundly. My fingers are all salty, but few pistachios have I et. defeated by shells. How sad is that. story of my life; I can handle the complicated things, it's the simple stuff which nails me every time. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

I would write some more erotica, but it does no good...there's no one to share it with. At least, I haven't found him lurking in the bedroom, unbeknownst to me. Sigh...oh well. And yes, I will be heading off to bed soon...all by myself. Which is another reason I don't want to write naughty stories tonight.... Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Michael, I sure could use one of your hugs. You know, I jsut could. And I'd make you one of my hot chocolates, too. Yummmmmmmm. Lincdercles, I gave up and just started with the hard stuff. I was going to get into the Single Barrel Jack, but decided sweet stuff is more what I wanted. I also think corked wine is better than no wine...maybe I'll do that. And did you know - it's hard to eat pistachios when you're not sober? Those damned shells. Damned corks, damned shells. Damn, damn, damn. Oh well. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

That might be something I should stock in my cabinet. Can you all believe the absolute gall of the wine bottle, not giving up it's cork? What do I do now, with a punctured cork in a good bottle of wine? Man, that burns me. I'd not have had to raid the liquor cabinet if that cork had given up. Darned cork. But Amulura...somethjing I will keep an eye out for. It doesn't have a cork, does it? Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! I need another hot chocolate.

Sorry to be so late in responding, but yes, that's my Dad, for real and true. He's a great man. And a great actor. And he's my dad. How lucky can a girl get? Ciels- Mi9chele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

I'm NOT sober at the moment....not at all. And it's because I want to be not sober. And I don't have to get up early. I tried to open a bottle of Cab, but the damned cork decided it wasn't coming out. i fought it well and truly, but it won. So I went to my liquor cabinet, and found - glory of glories - Midori. I had some cold 7-up, and made a few strong ones (three. YUMMY!!!). Then I ran out of 7-up. So then, I made some hot chocolate, poured in a hefty doese of Kahlua, and added some Godiva Chocolate Liqueur. I put some whipped cream on it, and it was so good, I made a second cup. I,m not sure why I'm telling you this, Sinker, except I just had a yell at God...but I don't feel any better. But sometimes, I think I'm going to just explode in a rain of red particulate matter. It's all right; I don't plan on doing that this evning...but still. Anyway, dunno why I'm blabbing, except it's Tuesday and I'm notttttttt sober. Not at all. No way, no how. No questions. No answers (that escpecially), so I'll just be toddling off to bed drunk as a poor whore in winter. It's all good. Besides, that hot chocolate was really good. Maybe I'll get another one. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Steph, why don't you tell your story, why you chose skydiving, what you've experienced and encountered, overcome and learned, and how that applies to the rest of your life. And then wrap it together with how those lessons would benefit people in a general sense. One of my "10 page" papers for a class I took ended up with a 75 page "disseration." He gave me the only "A" in the class, but complained about the reading. Then he told me I needed to write a book. LOL! Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

I've been thinking about this for a while; for some reason, forgiveness has been on my mind for the last 6 months or so. I don't know if I could forgive someone who murdered those I consider family (which extends farther than just blood relations to me). I'd like to think I could, I really want to think I could, but I honestly don't know. I do know, however, that I would do my best to forgive; I'd do the work it would take to begin to come to a place of forgiveness. I know that I would do my best - and then even more - to forgive. Because in the end, irrespective of what forgiveness does for the offender, what forgiveness does for me is to free me back to the love I know. I know that I cannot hate the thing I love. To withhold forgiveness - to even deny an attempt to forgive - is hating something. And hate takes so much energy, so much effort...and grows only it's own kind. To harbor that hate takes me away from my life, and I am still living. To hold that hate and nurture it means I have to give it life. I do not want to give hate life. I do not want to give it safe harbor. And so I would do everything I could do to forgive them. For me, to hold hate is to always live in what has happened, rather than allow what can happen occur. It is always looking backward, to the past. And that, I think, prevents one from ever seeing the path they're on to it's conclusion. One gets stuck looking backward, feeling all the hurt, hate and anger, and can never see the new, next experience which awaits them. And because I do not choose to live my life looking backwards, I would do my famdamnedest to forgive. But could I? That's something I pray I - and you - never have to know the answer to. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Hey, Valcore, check in when you have a minute. There are people who are concerned for you; it's been a rough time in your world, you know? Let us know you're all right. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Chuck, go ahead and get her spayed as soon as you are able. If she's coming up to two years old, it's beyond time. It's a relatively simple procedure, and she should be fine within 48 hours of the surgery (except for the stitches). I'd suggest you schedule an appointment now rather than later. It's more expensive to do it while the animal is in heat, so it's also cheaper to do it before she enters heat again (and studies have shown it's safer, too, to do it while she's not in estrus). As for the link being disgusting, I didn't see it (and frankly, I don't have any desire to...). Just trying to give a bit of info for you. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~