Skystorm

Same thing happenend to me. Got a sponsorship and wanted to buy a 170 ZP EXE (SA manufactured) b/c I felt safe with it. But so many tried to bullying me in to buying a Heatwave 150 or even a Heatwave 135. Some of them even got mad at me for not buying what they wanted.... For my height and weight the 135 should be an excellent choice, but not now. The 170 just have to do for at least 200 jumps. Then, when I could fly the shit out of it and land it under any circumstances, I would down size to a smaller canopy. Hang onto Heaven, when hell is on your back

I'm with Mel on this one. Hang onto Heaven, when hell is on your back

ROFLMFAO. Exellent!!!! The new Aids slogan in SA: (Afrikaans first, English translation later) No woman, no cry No tamatie, no slaai No tjoppie, no braai No condom, no naai. No woman, no cry No tomato, no salad No meat, no barberque (sp?) No condom, no fuck Sounds better in Afrikaans though. Hang onto Heaven, when hell is on your back

135 888 pts. Now my right hand is numb and I think my mouse is dead. LOL Bloody addictive. Hang onto Heaven, when hell is on your back

Sorry, we we're rude posting in a forgein (sp?) language. I apologise. As scratch said, it was mostly what the rest of you told me to do, just in my mother tongue. And thanx for being so understanding and supporting. E150 is right, if it's a mistake giving him another chance, I'll have to make my own. And hopefully learn from them (?) I somewhere read the following: "I'll be willing to make the mistakes, if someone else is willing to learn from them." LOL Somewhere down the line there will be a post reading: "I'm getting married!!" OR "I did a cutaway!!" But thank you to everyone replying, giving advice, supporting me, making me laugh and making me cry. I've never met any of you, but still feel that you are the best friends and family that I could've wished for. Blue Skies. Hang onto Heaven, when hell is on your back

n2, I don't like hearing friends of mine being in any accidents. I'm glad to hear that your all right. Hang onto Heaven, when hell is on your back

ROTFLMAO. Exellent!!!! Hang onto Heaven, when hell is on your back

Dankie Scratch Was die bangste vir jou!!! Dankie vir die ondersteuning. Nou wag ek net om te hoor wat sê Crazymel? Hang onto Heaven, when hell is on your back

Thanks Medic.

Ok, so since Monday night I didn't sleep a wink nor ate anything. I was constantly thinking about what choice to make. I posted on here, asking advice. Almost every single reply told me to cut. Some suggest I get a dog. LOL SOMEONE suggested I could fly to Marylands, USA. I've been asked to post video, sorry to dissapoint you guys, theres no video... I Think... I've printed this thread and studied it. It's full of red pen markings. I've taken a long hard look at myself, decided what I wanted, and why I've posted on here. And I haven't been brutally honest. Sorry. I'm ashamed of myself. I haven't told you about the time we fought and in the heat of the moment he told me he loved me. I haven't told you about the times we're with friends or in a bar and he pulls me nearer to him. I haven't told you that there was definitely an improvement since we've started dating. I haven't told you about a lot of things, because I was only thinking of my own anger and hurt when starting this thread. I hang my head in shame, I was trying to put him into a bad light, making me feel better. Still the things in the original post did happen. Last night we went to dinner in the town's most posh hotel (LOL). We started chatting about the weather, student skydivers for the upcoming weekend, and a whole lot of other stuff. And it was awkward as hell. I caught him a few times staring at me, trying to say something. For the first time I saw the dark circles under his eyes, the long beard, the uncombed hair. After dining I told him:"Ok, so this is what you're been doing and it hurts me and I won't stand for it. I deserve much better. Get your act together or get out." He was totally in disbelief, he never knew. Because before last night he never wanted to listen. He told me that's the way he is. If something doesn't concern him or touch his feelings, it's not worth doing anything about it. And I told him if that's the way he wants it, then he had to get out. He apologised and told me he doesn't want out. He asked me if I haven't noticed that he tried to change. I did notice, but for me he didn't try hard enough and I told him so. Told him that I'm not going to wait another year for him to treat me with love and respect. He told me it would not take another year. I told him that I didn't expect him to ask me to marry him, I don't want to get married, not now in any case. But I told him straight out: "One more misstep and you're out." I also told him about this thread and all the replies. He asked if he's really been such a jerk and I told him he was. I know that you all told me to cut and I read all the advice and taken it to heart. Thanx for all the support and love you've posted. Now you can flame me for not cutting, not listening, but I have to go with my gut feeling. Ok, I'm waiting.... Scratch/Mel, julle mag my maar uitkak in afrikaans. Mens doen dit anyway veel beter in jou moedertaal. Hang onto Heaven, when hell is on your back

Ok, so this is what I decided. I've invited him for drinks at a local bar tonight. I'll sit him down and ask him straight and last what his case are. Carefully screening his answer, the way he acts, little stuff that I know about him, I'll cut away. In the last few days since Monday Night, we haven't spoken a word. So I think he knows what's coming. Yet again, I'll have to inform you in the morning. Scratch/Mel, doen ek die regte ding? Die algemene opvatting van SA/Namibiese mans is dat hulle maar moeilik hulle gevoelens wys? Wish me luck. Hang onto Heaven, when hell is on your back

Scratch, I considered hitting him with a baseball bat in his sleep. But reconsidered because it would've made my bed all messy and bloody.

You guys!!! I came in early this morning to see what all of you has been telling me through out the night. I laughed out loud at some of your replies (at least I can laugh hey?) and started crying when I read others. I am a skydiver, I do jump out of dem planes. (btw he's also a skydiver...) Sangiro, dankie dat jy my in my eie taal antwoord. Dit beteken ongelooflik baie vir my. Michele (wiping of the tears) thanx.... Speedracer, if you buy the ticket, I'll be on that plane!! And yeah, I do treat all my b/f like this. I like to spoil the man in my life. Sending him e-mails that I know would make him laugh, taking lunch to his office when he has to work, helping him pack, sponsor a night out, stuff like that. Now for how it went. It didn't. Last night as I was closing the shop on of the employees told me he had been waiting for me but left again. So I started walking home, taking a different route than usual. Just for a change of scenery. He must have gone home, thinking I'd be there all ready and when I wasn't he actually came looking for me. Something he's never done before. It didn't impress me. I got into the car without saying a word. We went to his parents house, I made dinner and we watched SA Pop Idols. Through all this the only conversation there was, was when he asked me if I've managed to get time off work next weekend. I told him flat out no. We went home, he got into bed and I stayed behind in a dark livingroom, listening to Alanis Morisette's new cd. I cried. For me, for him, for the good times and the bad, for our relationship. I got up smoked a ciggie and went to bed. Somewhere during the night he reached for me. I just turned away. My heart was breaking. I wanted so much turn into his arms, wanting him to tell me he loved me and that everything's gonna be all right. Instead I turned away. This morning he actually got up earlier than usual just to take me to work. That didn't impress me. I know myself. I'm gonna switch of every little switch by every little switch. It's gonna take some time. But I hope to get there in time to safe myself. I'll have to move towns again. This town is way to small. I'll bump into him around every corner. And my company is doing business with his company. We have to speak to each other daily. Someone gave the advice to switch dz's. So I have to move to another town to switch dz's. I've never met any of you in person. Still I feel that you are the only true friends to be found at this time. Thanks for sticking with me. Love ya all. Skystorm Hang onto Heaven, when hell is on your back

I do have a Rossi .38 Special (short barrle) and I had a few friends showing me a few tricks on fighting. I always did wonder how big a mess my .38 would make on short impact. [evil grin] [little girl voice] "Oh, but Officer, I was cleaning my gun and it suddenly went off. Fancy a blow-job?" [/little girl voice] lol You guys gave me good and solid advice, thanx. It seems we have our own panel of Dr. Ruth's in here. I'll look in tomorrow morning again. Have to go home and face the music. Let you know in the morning. Hang onto Heaven, when hell is on your back

rhino, I could never do that, OR COULD I?? [evil grin] We do have some talent over here, but they are too young. Shouldn't I be worried that I'll scar them for life? LOL Hang onto Heaven, when hell is on your back

Yeah, I know what to do, but I'm scared as hell.. (UN?)fortunately no video. LOL, sorry to dissapoint you guys, maybe I should give it a week more and get a video? Seriously, thanx you guys, I appreciate each and every reply made to my ranting. Now if I could only work up the guts to kick him out... Anyone who wants to volunteer to come and kick his ass out of my apartment? I'll be forever in your debt, by the way... Hang onto Heaven, when hell is on your back

Phill, Your words hit a cord. This is the second relationship this has happend. The last one lasted for four years. I walked out with nothing... Not even my self-respect. Literally NOTHING. It took me a long time to pull myself together again. Why in the world do I let this happen????? Hang onto Heaven, when hell is on your back

Mel, When did you do your AFF? And at what DZ? It may be that we know a lot of the same people

I know that some of you will want to flame me for putting my personal life on this forum, fact is I don't care. I need advice. My boyfriend and I have been going steady for about a year. But I still have no idea what I mean to him. I have told him that I loved him and the only answer I got back was "yeah" or "I told you not to fall in love with me". He told me he loved me once when he was on ecstacy and once when he got high. I feel that he just uses me. He lives with me (pay no rent), although we have dinner at his parents every night of the week. In a year he once came to fetch me at my parents house. He says that he doesn't want to meet my parents because we're not getting married. I've done about everything to be fun to be with. Done things that I normally wouldn't do just to please him. And I get nothing in return. And I'm not making this up, or just seeing things. When he wants to be, he's a real fun guy to be with. But everything has to revolve around him. When we go to parties I'll stay for as long as I possibly can, even if I wanted to go home hours ago, just to please him. I can sit there and fall asleep, or as it has happend got a migraine and his only reaction is :"Go sit in the car, I'm partying" Last night (6pm) he went out to get some take aways. I finally tracked him down (9.30pm) in a bar, drinking with his buddies. I don't mind him going out with his buddies, I just feel he should've at least phone me to tell me he'll be late. He came home at 11pm, eventually. When I tried to explain to him that I didn't feel he was treating me right, he would just laugh at me, or go :"Huh, did you say something?" It took every inch of strenght in me not to physically attack him. I finally asked him if he wanted me. He just said "yeah". So I told him that if he wanted me he would have to start working at our relationship, because I'm quitting. He just rolled over and went to sleep. Should I cutaway or should I try (yet again and again and again) ? I'm at my wits end here. I love him, but this is not working for me. Please, I need advice and fast. I'm going out of my mind. Hang onto Heaven, when hell is on your back

NOW they tell me about plf..... LOL I did exactly the same. Flared much to high, holding the flare and eventually crashed into Mother Earth. Several times.... Last time I counted it was 12. Luckily I never sprained, broken or crushed any thing. Just a few bruises and scratches. I always opted for the softest spots to fall down onto. LOL Some guy from another DZ watch me slammed into the ground and gave me some pointers. Now I have 1 run-out landing and 3 stand-ups to my credit. Cool!!!

No children for me, but I have a 6 year old nephew. He came to watch me jump the other day and totally digs it. He even asked when he could jump, if he could go on the next load! His mother (my eldest sister, which is expecting a girl to arrive one of these days) didn't think it was very funny. Still I'll pay for his first jump in a few years time. We just won't tell his mom, or mine for that matter... Hang onto Heaven, when hell is on your back

The brains!!!! Hang onto Heaven, when hell is on your back

Happy B/Day Medic. A round of beer and a big party!! My thoughts and prayers to you and your family. Hang onto Heaven, when hell is on your back

I'm the youngest (of four sisters), the one who takes the risks, the one for "dangerous" things. Always thought I was adopted. Hang onto Heaven, when hell is on your back

SpeedRacer, I was talking about my home DZ. And generally the country I'm from, all male skydivers. I think we're about 3/4 females in the sport over here. Hang onto Heaven, when hell is on your back