TribalTalon

man. i dunno. if things dont improve in the next month or so, i just might pack up my shit and leave. (pay off my bills and stuff first)

i've been trying to get a job for 3 months. absolutely no luck. everybody is hiring managers, with previous experience. guess who doesnt have prior experience.

yep.

dude. i really friggin hate needles.

i did. they said its being "reviewed" there's nothing else i can do at this point. i did have quite a bit of money saved up, that's how i've gotten this far. but i've spent my entire life savings on rent and all that stuff, plus skydiving. i was just always figuring the loan was gonna be here tomorrow or the day after, thats what they keep telling me, even now! its some serious, seriously FUCKED up bullshit. i'm starting to see my dreams go down in flames at this point.

welp, i spent my last dollar yesterday, my credit card company is harassing my parents to no end (my phone is shut off due to not paying the phone bill), my bank wants to talk to me, rent is due in a couple weeks, there are absolutely no jobs in this area, oh, and i have a week's supply of ramen noodles left. not to mention the electricity bill which i havent paid, or gas. how much more screwed can i possibly get. this is all thanks to a wonderful company called Teri loans, based in boston. way back in january, i filled out an application for a 15,000 dollar loan, and was approved. i figured, cool, it'll be here in 4-5 days. thats what they say, anyway. well. its now mid march and i still havent gotten anything, and i'm beyond screwed, not to mention a little hungry. All that matters to me in this life right now is skydiving, my rig, and my life. in that order. i think. i'd rather sell my car then my rig. but anyway, i suppose with this many people on the site, some people have to have been in this situation. what did you do? (by the way i'm going to westwood college of aviation in houston, texas)

i used to do the same thing with my implant.. i just modified my hurricane freefly helmet (cut out some foam) so that my implant will fit in there nice and snug. pretty cool. i'm hoping to be able to hear an audible nice and loud with it on. plus, now that i am doing crw, i want to be able to hear what the other person is saying, in case of an emergency or whatever.

are you joking?

who the fuck wants a snakeboard anyway.

hahaha.. well depends on where the "TBD" is.

actually, i dont think i'm gonna be able to make it.. i still havent gotten any money in, and i spent my last dollar yesterday. i'm hoping for some kind of miracle that my loan comes in, but its doubtful. and what kind of woman would want to hang out with a broke ass 20 year old. *raises eyebrow* do i really wanna know the answer?

*takes notes* i bitch about not having been laid in 8 months all the time, but the truth is i never bother trying to get any. i'm not the type to go to a bar or club to pick up chicks, i'm past that.... (i dont have any money for clubs or bars )

yeah, leave me and blake out.

uh. heh.

uhh.. what does TBD mean? and i'm probably in.

maybe wake up go to school be really bored come home eat sleep repeat.

Fade by Staind I try to breathe Memories overtaking me I try to face them but The thought is too much to conceive I only know that I can change Everything else just stays the same So now I step out of the darkness that my life became 'cause I just needed someone to talk to You were just to busy with yourself You were never there for me To express how I felt I just stuffed it down Now I'm older and I feel like I could let some of this anger fade But it seems the surface I am scratching Is the bed that I have made So where were you? When all this I was going through You never took the time To ask me just what you could do I only know that I can change Everything else just stays the same So now I step out of the darkness that my life became 'cause I just needed someone to talk to You were just to busy with yourself You were never there for me To express how I felt I just stuffed it down Now I'm older and I feel like I could let some of this anger fade But it seems the surface I am scratching Is the bed that I have made I never meant to fade... Away I NEVER MEANT TO FADE I just needed someone to talk to You were just to busy with yourself You were never there for me To express how I felt I just stuffed it down Now I'm older and I feel like I could let some of this anger fade But it seems the surface I am scratching Is the bed that I have made I try to breathe...

WHOAH!!! life savers. i'll be living large yeah i've been living on randalls pizza and ramen noodles and P & J sandwiches ever since i started school at westwood (january)

hey, 5 more cents and i'd have enough for some skittles out of the candy machine. That just might end up being my meal for the day sometime soon if things dont improve.

yeah its been a shitty day. found out that my loan for some reason STILL hasnt come through. I have no money for my bills, or anything, for that matter. tried going to lunch today and found out that my credit card is completely maxed out and i have no money in my bank account. If i dont get some sort of loan in the next few weeks, i'm done for. seriously. it'll be adios aviation mechanic school and hello to living under a bridge or something. *edit* i also came to the ironic conclusion that i'd rather sell everything else i own before i sell my skydiving gear. heh. but i am selling my freefly suit, as it's not really something i REALLY need. If i still dont get any money coming in soon, i might have to sell my brand new RW Tony Suit which i JUST got.

yeah i know, but i cant find one/dont have money for one.

well i have tribal tattoos, i love tribal art, and i have a eagle talon. which is kind of funny since i have a tribal eagle on my back. i guess. Ha. Ha. anyway, there you have it, tribaltalon. some retards at my dz call me Ray. as in Ray Charles, even though he's blind and i'm deaf. Who knows.

hmmm.. well in terms of meeting famous people, back when i was like 12, i met the then Miss Texas Chelsi Smith, who won Miss USA and then Miss Universe, at the Texas Grande in Beeville, texas. My mom knew her somehow and my mom wanted to take a picture of her and me together, and this lady offered to give me a kiss, and me, still in the girls have cooters period of my life, was repulsed. I was beyond embarrassed when my mom finally got me to stand still while she took a picture of Chelsi kissing my cheek. haha. who can top that, not wanting to be kissed by Miss Universe (but, i had NO idea who she was at the time) i have no idea where that picture is, but here's a picture of chelsi that i dug up on the net.

hey do i have to have an audible? its not like it'd do me any good.

i'm guessing San Marcos? Sounds interesting.. i wonder if i can get good enough at sitflying in 2 months.... hmmm