LuckyMcSwervy

Wow. I'm absolutely blown away and humbled by all of the heartfelt responses. I've read every single response and I apologize from the bottom of my heart for causing any triggers or bad memories to some of you. I never imagined there were so many of you that alcohol and/or drug abuse has touched. I wish everyone the strength to stay clean and sober or the fortitude to keep strong for loved ones fighting the fight. It's ugly. That being said, I admit I'm mentally wiped out. A few nights ago it got ugly. I've copied and pasted part of my response to a PM because it pretty much just shoots from the hip how I was feeling at the time: After I wrote the above, the next day he called me again from number I didn't recognize but I picked up anyway thinking it was a call I'd been waiting for. He then threatened that if I made any more phone calls or emails to his family or friends, he was calling the police to tell them I was harassing him, he knows all the cops, etc. He knows one contact with law enforcement that isn't work related for me causes me to get my security clearances suspended, no questions asked, until it's sorted out by my superiors. He knows I'm smarter than that to think he could get anywhere legally with me, but to threaten my career and do something to maliciously fuck with my stellar reputation is beyond out of bounds. The bottom line is he can go fuck himself. I'm out. I tried to be a good friend since it sure as hell looked like no one else cared enough to help. This is the thanks I get. Nice guys finish last. I've had a headache for the last 4 days over the stress of someone twisting my good intentions to me being a nosy bitch. All I wanted is for someone who deep down is a good person not to end up facing an early death due to alcohol abuse. Silly me. Always be kinder than you feel.

Thanks. I'm sorry for your loss. I hadn't been around this person in 25 years so I had absolutely no idea how their life was going downhill with the alcohol. I've asked him in the morning about hangovers. He said they "hurt so good" and he "loves the pain". Sounds like some self loathing to me. I don't want to be left with the same thoughts you have about your friend that you lost so early. Always be kinder than you feel.

Thanks. I'm sorry you're experiencing that hell. Always be kinder than you feel.

Easy to prove. My eyebrow hair color is almost black. You may dye your eyebrows. Fair enough. But I don't dye my forearm hair. It's dark!! Always be kinder than you feel.

+1 How about "Hasta La Vista baby?" I never got into The Terminator movies. I'm not a fan of Arnold's acting. That said, I think that line is soooooo overused. I think it's stupid. Always be kinder than you feel.

Don't forget to claim that on your taxes. My yearly Win/Loss Statements will surely cover that whopping $4 net win. Always be kinder than you feel.

I reached out to someone's best friend to garner support to try to put together some kind of "we love you, you need help" get together and I was totally rebuffed. I reached out to someone's sister to garner support to try to put together some kind of "we love you, you need help" get together and I was totally rebuffed. The two people closest to this person I'm concerned about both said in a roundabout way the person didn't have a bad problem with alcohol because he gets up and goes to work every day. I asked both of them if they're worried about pissing him off? Worried the parties with free lobsters, filet mignon, freeflowing booze and wine in a luxury home would end? Aren't you worried the example he's setting for his kids? I told them both he's a highly functioning alcoholic. He's going to die an early death if he doesn't stop drinking. This person seemed proud to tell me he goes through 5 handles of Tito's Vodka per week. PER WEEK. If no else else cares, why should I, right? After all, this person raised his voice to me to tell me he "can handle his fucking liquor. Fuck you!" when I suggested he had a problem. He also has absolutely no recollection of a couple of events a couple of hours long that he participated in the previous nights. Total blackouts of long conversations. His oldest son (14 years old) is crying out for help with Facebook posts about feeling unloved and stuff like that. His exWife takes him to court for extra money at least 4 times a year and he's extremely hateful about her, so she's out as a resource for help. I know some people around here have been on the receiving end of some help or have helped someone get help. Am I out of line? I think I should probably just walk away and sever all ties. I hate to see someone slip farther down that hole. I'm waiting for all hell to break lose when his friend and sister tell him what I had in mind. BTW - This is the second time I've tried to bring up the backing off alcohol thing. The first time was ignored by all. Always be kinder than you feel.

Easy to prove. My eyebrow hair color is almost black. Always be kinder than you feel.

I can hear you. I'm not a natural blonde. Always be kinder than you feel.

What time are you picking me up?

They aren't Mexican, you silly. You're flying to the wrong country. That I understand. I guess what I was getting at is a margarita will taste better when I'm sitting somewhere warm. Always be kinder than you feel.

You probably don't want to know then that this was a brand new dozer that went to the bottom of the lake. We had to drag it through a lot of junk including and old river channel 40 feet deep with steep banks to get up. Took all day to cut a channel out to it for the cable. Took divers 8 hours to hook up OUCH!! So, will it buff out? Always be kinder than you feel.

YES! I get so homesick. Always be kinder than you feel.

+1 Always be kinder than you feel.

It breaks my heart to see that. At least it wasn't a Cat. I have such a thing for construction equipment. Especially cranes but excavators, bulldozers, pile drivers, loaders, graders, rollers, asphalt removers/grinders, etc. totally make me smile. Whatever happened, I hope no one was hurt or got into trouble/fired. Always be kinder than you feel.

Home! Bed! My kitter! $4 richer than when I left. Always be kinder than you feel.

I'll celebrate by leaving for Puerto Rico. Always be kinder than you feel.

Thanks. I really liked the view. The windows of the room didn't open but you could open the fresh air vents at the bottom of the window panes and you could hear the sound effects as well. It was nice! Always be kinder than you feel.

Did you like the Mirage? When I come back I may try another property. It was freaking HUGE! It felt like a work out from the tower my room was in to the Forum Shops. I didn't see any shows. I was supposed to see Britney Spears last night but gave away my tickets to some dude with a little girl who was trying to buy tickets outside the doors. I got them for free so I didn't care. A little girl seeing Britney Spears with her Dad on Valentine's Day was priceless to me. If he was using the kid as bait and turned around and sold them, oh well. I thought for sure I'd be leaving a light lighter but this Wheel of Fortune slot machine I was playing kept hitting and I kept cashing out. Phew!! Always be kinder than you feel.

Well, I'm leaving Las Vegas with $13 more than I showed up here with. Then again, maybe I'll end up in the hole because I still have to grab food before my flight eventually departs. I stayed at Caesars. The room was awesome with a great view of Bellagio's fountains. Overall, it was a nice time but I get homesick fast when I'm alone. Always be kinder than you feel.

I know the general area where someone with a metal detertor can possibly find one for free. Always be kinder than you feel.

That's funny because my Key Lime Pie is the BEST in the universe!! http://heahea.org/img/389-Impossibru.jpg Always be kinder than you feel.

That's funny because my Key Lime Pie is the BEST in the universe!! Always be kinder than you feel.

Thanks but this isn't news to me. Always be kinder than you feel.

Some dude named Guy Savoy is cooking for me this evening.