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Actually all of you do. You see- though I have met some of you in person and some I will meet very soon- some I may never meet. But you all have something to teach me. About life and experiences. And no turtle, you can't teach me anything sexual Best Girl Scout Ever.

Turtle- I love you. Best Girl Scout Ever.

To understand. I'm addicted to learning- especially how society/ different cultures function. I should post the responses the BDSM community says to me when I speak of skydiving to them. It's quite funny. Almost a bit similar to the responses in this thread. Also- A domintrix really doesn't do anything that is dominant. It's the submissive who holds all the power...which is the irony! Best Girl Scout Ever.

Exactly. I'm changing my name: to Jwanna Mann. If confronted- I'd tell them. However the topic isn't something I would bring up in the board room or at the dinner table with my family. Thanks for the heads up. Best Girl Scout Ever.

Yes! I was waiting a response like this. Counseling- Well actually you are in luck! I've seen numerous doctors, counselors, have had my brain waves monitored while I slept, and still see a Dr. too this day, I have friends who are pyschologists and we often speak of my encounters. Why? My parents always though there was something wrong with me. Difference in culture caused shockwaves through my family. There wasn't anything wrong- I just grew up like every american child- with immigrant parents- I went through my days of deviance- and still often relapse...however never to the point where it becomes problematic. Diagnosis? None. Though I do have some insecurities, and yes, we all few problems to work out in our lives. Things can be better and what not. But control issues? No. Any one from the DZ that has met me, knows that I am not the controlling sort. I am rather quiet and pleasant. Would I like to control certain things? Oh yes-I'd love to- Change things for the better. Universal healthcare? More goverment grants? Gun Control laws? Strict laws on violent crimes? If I was president! hahaha But people? I can't control what people do. I can't control what they think, breathe or say. But I can educate and if they want to listen they can. If they don't it's their prerogative. Relationship issues? Hmmm interesting. Family relationships are strong despite the culture clash. I respect their traditions, ideas, and differences. Personal relationships- Well- I have to find myself, my niche per say- (which is what I am in the midst of doing) For those of you that follow Erickson -totally stand by the developmental stages of life- I am a firm believer that a person should find their "role" and "identity" before commiting them selves to another person. I will be the first person to tell you that I haven't found it yet. There is no denial on my part. However there is actually a really good book called "I was a Teenage Dominatrix" where a girl with a 'normal' family, 'normal' psyche- involves herself into this same lifestyle- and puts herself though college. Best Girl Scout Ever.

I think a lot of people get into regular relationships for the wrong reasons also. I can't tell you how many men have told me- yeah she was HOT- but crazy. (note other thread about crazy ex's) I know people who are so needy they bounce from one relationship to another- just for attention. I understand that no one is perfect and we do certain things to justify voids in our lives. However when that need to fill a void correlates with deceiving actions then that's where I disagree. Again it boils down to honesty, consent, and understanding. Best Girl Scout Ever.

The honesty and truth part comes before the action. When she tells you that you aren't satisfying her enough so she is looking else where. Women and men don't wake up one day and say "hey I am going to fuck some one else for the hell of it" Its a building void that one day explodes, but there are signs that most people like to ignore. They are missing something in the relationship or in their own lives- Personally if I was in the circumstance and had ideas of infidelity- I would approach my partner- either we'd break it off or make adjustments. But I wouldn't just keep them around just to sleep with someone else behind their back. If they were cool with swinging lifesyle or cuckolding- it and we were safe- then thats a different ball game. Yes still will be diffcult to stomach, but in the end its better than dragging it out 5 years later popping out 2 kids and then having to deal with it Best Girl Scout Ever.

You can't stay married if you do things that society considers "abnormal"? Every one is a pervert. Tell me one adult who doesn't like to orgasm. Difference is that you have honest and open perverts versus lying perverts. Best Girl Scout Ever.

From a legal stand point it is more correct to say "High Risk" as a company cannot offically state if a job is legitimate. I used to investigate fraud for shit like this. It's exteremly high risk to do anything that is work from home. Especially if there is an investment. However so is selling Mary Kay- you pay upfront for product and then make profits on what you sell. Though Mary Kay has been known as a reputiable company- MAJORITY 99% Percent of online work at home is BULLSHIT. They are targeting a niche market of people who want to spend more time with family or unable to work. Don't do it- Don't even sign up as they also use the information to sell to other companies. The US is EXTREMELY behind on enforcing laws on internet crimes. Oh and they call reselling your information "Network marketing" Stay away. Unless you like spam and telemarketers. Best Girl Scout Ever.

I feel like one. I think that I am a good canidate because I do admire those who understand themselves and are comfortable enough to go and achieve their happiness. Why I decide to submerge myself in such a culture is because the clientle intrigues me. Though this approach is one that is very taboo. I would rather face people who pursue their ambitious -as different and unorthodox as they may seem- than be with people that sit at home watch TV everyday and have their life slip away before them. Best Girl Scout Ever.

SURE. And I am sure you and your gator thong aren't going to be making an apperance? I want to be the female counter part to the gatorthong awesomeness- but I haven't found anything that would properly compliment gator thongs. Any suggestions? I could always put a gator thong on my strap on, but then it would be erect the whole time. Unless I can get a limp strap on. Best Girl Scout Ever.

There are actually quite a few men that do this also, that get to discipline women. There are 2 that work full time at this dungeon. Best Girl Scout Ever.

I don't think I will get sucked in. I do get lapses of fetish burn out. Where I just need something "normal" but then again normal is really just relative to the situation. I promise to touch back in 20. I've always been known to keep my word. As far as not telling them, well for some reason it offends people. For example- in high school I would dye my hair all different colors wear baggy pains with chains all over them. Towards the end of the year when I approached college- my attire would litterally offend people. Though it didn't have any vulgar wprds or exposing body parts showing, it still managed to upset. Then I got my first coporate job. I love it- got rid of all my clothes and started wearing business causal. I think I am able to do it part time. The girls that I saw at the place are not lifestyle dominas at all. I am pretty heavy into the scene in Chicago... Best Girl Scout Ever.

So- I have decided to take up a second job as a Professional Dominatrix to pay off my student loans. I went for my interview on Monday. The dungeon is about 1.5 miles from my office, so it is within walking distance. I arrived at a cleverly disguised building between a dog boutique and a cafe. The windows had white drapes all over with only a number above the door. I figured it was the place as there was a security camera on the corner. I didn't see a doorbell- so I proceed to open the door. I walk in, present myself and advise the woman that I am here for an interview. The place looks just like an office. Computer a desk, plants and the walls were painted blue with tacky abstract paintings. The woman is dressed in business casual attire and she hands me a clip board and pen so I can fill out an application. The dungeons I am used to are always black, candle lit, and gloomy. I fill out my application, which is no different than one I would fill out at any vanilla job. I sit back down on the couch and wait to get called. I hear some one coming up from the basement door. The woman who handed me my application says clear and a man emerges. He's in his mid 40's wearing business professional attire, and is carrying a backpack. I hold back my laughter inside, because its funny. I sat there stared at this man and thought "hmmm....I wonder if he got his balls kicked? Or I wonder if he likes crossdressing? I wonder if I would ever run into him during my lunch break from the office- walking down town? How would he address me? What could he possibly do for a living... My curiousity was piqued. I wanted to find out WHY and HOW this man came to be. What circumstances in his life caused him to crave such humilation. Then- I get called into a back room, which again looks like a normal office building with the exception of an ashtray on the corner of the desk. It was just like any normal interview except dialogue went something like this: Interviewer: Are you comfortable with dominating a man? Me: Yes Interviewer: Are you comfortable with verbally humilating men? Me: Yes Interviewer: Are you comfortable with dressing men up as women? Me: Yes Interviewer: We do get quite a few couples- are you comfortable with dominating a woman? Me: Yes The only regular question was: Interviewer: Do you have a mode of transporation? Me: Yes Interviewer: Great because we are opening up a second facility in the suburbs which you might be able to work out of from time to time. Me: Great I am on the fence about the job, I am excited but I am also nervous. Being a domina is much harder than one expects it to be. When I first started it, it was difficult me to humilate some one, as it isn't in my nature to do so, without justifcation. It was hard to kick the first set of balls without reason. It was difficult to inflict all sorts of pain, because it's not natural- it still isn't. Think of it in terms of skydiving- your first jump- your body and mind doesn't know what to make of the experience, same with bdsm. You have to mentally separate the two and live a double life. I can't tell my coworkers or family how I spent my afternoons, because they quite frankly wouldn't understand. If they find out, this is nothing I am ashamed of, but it would be alot of explaining that is quite unnecessary, because they couldn't possibly accept nor understand. Thats the risk that I have accepted to take. As far as income, it is lucritive. I will have to sign a W2 and I do get taxed on every dollar I make. Leads are generated for me- so I get thrown in a roation. Any leads that I bring in I can charge any set price. I will get a paycheck just like my normal job. House will take a percentage but majority will go to me. Income: 100 dollars per hour (house leads only) Self generated leads are more. Shift: 5-Midnight Monday- Friday - weekend varies No nudity on my part- No sexual contact of any kind (most people think that's what you get- but its not) I start training next week and thats when I will start working. I will keep those of you that follow my posts updated as I submerge myself into this lifestyle. There is a lot to learn...and a lot I am curious about. Oh and they hold underground slave auctions. Where men are bought and sold.... Interesting..... I am keeping journals of my experience in this small chapter of my life. Best Girl Scout Ever.

The rare but serious condition will be called "Pestiferous femme disorder" also known as PFD. This serious illness can be treated by utilizing my goverment funded treatment called "Amours Masculine Rejuvenation" Side effects include but are not limited to: *Extreme exaustion- *Difficulty wearing form fitting jeans *Excessive Drooling *Extenstive staring by the females at your pelvic area *Excessive High fives from males you haven't even met. Best Girl Scout Ever.

Ooooh yes. GOOD THING YOU REMINDED ME! So- I am willing to propose to George W. Bush to grant me government funding to alleivate emotional distress for men after they dated a REALLY crazy woman. We can vote on DZ ho of the year to take the scarred men for a test drive-but its just for research purposes... I would offer my services to those males- but after they've hooked up with the REAL crazies....you don't know what you can catch from them. Men will endure a series of tests to their libidos and see if they can regain their normal everyday drive- with much needed stimulation. And nevermind that I will be video taping every case study for distribution at the local Adult Store. There has been this crazy troll running around who needs a date with my 15in strap on. And I'll sit on her ex's face. :) you tube anyone? Best Girl Scout Ever.

Hmmmm..... I like the theme about crazy bitches. I am fucking crazy- but I will never fake a pregnancy. THOSE bitches are crazy. Best Girl Scout Ever.

Man's sanity is directly related to how many times his head (the smaller one) comes in contact with my stilletto. Best Girl Scout Ever.

Its because we go back to the primitive....the way we were made as animals. Eat. Fuck. Conquer. Shit. Sleep. Best Girl Scout Ever.

Sounds like a certain turtle needs to be trained on how to talk to women..... Best Girl Scout Ever.

I've never been a crazy ex or had a crazy ex. I relieve enough stress through other avenues to tarnish a good stable relationship. But- my guy friends always tell me about their crazy ex's- Word to the wise- have your wing woman screen a potential GF out- crazies always smell a crazy from a mile a way. I've helped out alot of my friends start long lasting relationships. However on the other hand- it's difficult for me to find a femme who I get along with and one I am attracted to. I am not into butch chicks- because then I would just date a man. (thats my logic) Best Girl Scout Ever.

I am glad to see that his story made the paper- my parents actually mentioned this to me the other day. I was lucky enough to meet both of them last month at SDC. I am so happy to see this story, this truly is heartwarming and inspiring.

Woady- Come on...I will only nominate you when you let me help you out with your arch... You are a hottie and you know it- but I can't vote for some one who has less jumps than me....maybe when you graduate AFF. Plus you never did send me pictures of you in your uniform.... Best Girl Scout Ever.

Oh SH*T!! He's down! Somebody call the paramedics! We'll try defibbing him with Spence's Electric 8-Way cable. Thanks a lot pumpkin! I think you just killed the new AFF instructor. Guilty as charged. I have a thing or older men. Best Girl Scout Ever.

I went to pick up some "recommended readings" from barnes and noble. The cute check out guy reads the titles out loud.... Don't call it love -Recovery from sexual addiction and - Treament and Recovery from Sexual Addiction. The guy gave me the craziest look- as he checked out my books. I wanted to die. Best Girl Scout Ever.