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There have been several delays...the first of which I understood. I've been pitching a fit. Should have the order in a week plus a couple extra goodies that they're throwing in for free.

I went to one back in September. Mostly girls, 2 gay guys and 1 straight guy. Lots of fun. Still waiting for my order to come in though.

Like hell I'm giving up beer for lent. Acutally, I got that from Bolas and thought it was quite appropriate for dz.com.

Our lager, Which art in barrels, Hallowed be thy drink. Thy will be drunk, (I will be drunk), At home as it is in the pub. Give us this day our foamy head, And forgive us our spillage's, As we forgive those who spill against us. And lead us not to incarceration, But deliver us from hangovers. For thine is the beer, The bitter, The lager. BARMEN.

Depression doesn't work that way. As someone stated before. You can try all you like to describe the feeling of skydiving to someone but they will never fully understand it until they experience it themselves. Anyone on here could spend months trying to explain it to you. Unfortunately there is no way to fully understand it until you experience it first hand. My brother's wife suffers from depression, so he thinks he understands what I'm going through. However, he's the one who keeps telling me to just buck up and get over it. He doesn't understand in the slightest and he lives with it.

wants to wax turtle

I know and that's what I'm doing. Which is why suspicion first arose when he said his mover would be picking it up.

If it weren't for them and knowing how they work I may have possibly fallen for a scam. I posted some things up on Craigslist, one of which was my 27" TV. I said that cash was preferred but if they had to pay by check we'd work something out. So this guy e-mails me that he wants the TV and will be sending me a check and once the check clears he'll send someone to pick up the TV. This struck me as a little odd. Well, I just received this e-mail: How do you mistake $100 for $1750? I just kinda laughed when I read it. I sent him an e-mail back saying nice try and that he won't be getting the TV.

Sorry to bring this back up again, but I feel the same way. Skydiving cheers me up. Every time I jump, I pull. I choose to live every time. It makes me feel like I have more control. I know that on any jump I could end it. There is no failed attempt, no one will stop me, it will be the end. But I choose not to do it. Sometimes when I am really depressed, I will hesitate to pull, but never longer than a second. Skydiving gives me peace... I don't know if this make sense to anyone... I will say that when I haven't jumped in an extended period of time (typically longer than a month) the depression does get worse. Skydiving is my outlet. It's my chance to forget about everything else in life, even if only for a minute. When I'm at the DZ I don't think about all the other problems in my life. Hence, winter is a horrible time for me.

That's awesome. Though it sucks to think that an aussie has seen more of the US sites then someone who's lived here her entire life. Hope you enjoyed the US. Have fun the rest of the trip and keep us updated.

You hit the nail on the head. I personally suffer from clinical depression. (I've been to the dr's and been on the meds). And it sucks horribly. I've contemplated suicide many times. As recently as a few days ago. It's not something that just goes aways. It is a VERY lonely feeling...the feeling that no one else understands what you're going through. My brothers called and tried to talk to me but they just said to get over it. They don't understand. And if your own family doesn't understand who will. I don't know why I'm confessing this all. I'll probalby regret it later if anyone ever calls me and says they want to talk. I don't like talking about it because then I have to face it. Don't be too surprised if this post gets deleted by me or I eventually ask a greenie to delete it for me.

Plan A was to find a job in Florida and move there. After about a month of job hunting and putting in literally 30 applications, I heard back from 2 of the jobs and 1 said no immediately once they learned I didn't already live there. (Which if they would have read the e-mail I sent with my resume they would've known that. ) I think that living so far away is causing issues. Plus, the job market in Florida isn't the greatest. So, now I'm onto plan B. Moving to Atlanta temporarily. My parents, along with my other brother and his family live in the suburbs of Atlanta. Both have offered for me to move in with them. The thought is that the job market in Atlanta will be much more plentiful. Live there until I get back on my feet financially then start looking in Florida again. So, any Atlanta folks know of a place that's hiring? I'm not being picky right now. I'll work at McDonald's if I have to.

Unfortunately we don't jump during the winter. As it looks right now we're not going to have either plane back until at least the end of March. Also...as an FYI...we're doing a 2 part Safety Day. March 28th and April 4th. For more details PM me.

Ok boys...no more dirty talk. I'm off to try to sleep again. And yes Lisa I will turn off my computer.

You actually want to continue that streak? Yes, until I find a most wholesome woman that will take me as I am and cherish me. You and wholesome do NOT belong in the same sentence.

I will after I finish my drink.

You actually want to continue that streak?

Why is tonight a lot worse than usual? What is on your mind? Got alot going on...waiting to hear about a possible job (should be hearing about it tomorrow or wed). And trying to figure out what I'm going to do about bills already 2 months overdue if I don't get the job and even if I get the job how I'm going to get to Florida (I'm attempting to push the reset button on my life and start over and it's not exactly going to plan). I'm with you on that ... I want to move to FL ... or CA .. or somewhere warm and near the coast. Where are you moving from? You'll find the reset button eventually. It may just take more than one try and more than one finger (no sexual fantasies of mine intended on that one) (that's a first). Hmmm ... What is wrong with me? Moving from western PA. One of the big reasons for the move is over the years all of my family has moved south and I'm the only one up here. My closest living family is in ATL 13 hours away. And to Turtle...are you offering? I wouldn't be able to pay you but I think that you be around for that would be payment enough.

An electric device may help her sleep though . . . if used properly for just the right amount of time. That's why you are "turtlespeed"? Because I posted it three seconds before you? :) Amature -I was speaking directly about AC powered devices. What a battery does a wall plug can do better Boys, boys, boys. Don't you think I would have already thought about that and tried it?

Why is tonight a lot worse than usual? What is on your mind? Got alot going on...waiting to hear about a possible job (should be hearing about it tomorrow or wed). And trying to figure out what I'm going to do about bills already 2 months overdue if I don't get the job and even if I get the job how I'm going to get to Florida (I'm attempting to push the reset button on my life and start over and it's not exactly going to plan).

I never sleep entirely through the night anyway so that part won't be any different. I've actually developed this habit now where I can't fall asleep without the tv on. I pop in a movie and set the sleep timer. Whenever I camp out at the DZ it takes hours for me to get to sleep (even after a night of drinking at the DZ). Edited to add: The whole getting my mind to shut off so I can go to sleep is a constant problem with me. Which is why I sleep with the tv on. It distracts my mind. Tonight is just alot worse than usual.

Well of course...what else would be keeping me awake.

I can't get my brain to shut off long enough to do so. I've got so much crap going through my head I haven't been sleeping well at all lately. So I just made myself a very strong drink in hopes of it helping me to relax enough that I can get to sleep. (Don't worry, this is not habit. Actually first time I've ever done it.)

No - Divot told me he and Ralffers have been taking a little "time off". Ok...that makes me feel a little better knowing I'm not alone.

I may be the only girl on this entire site that's at 0 for the year.