Michele

I got mine a few days ago...it's kewlio! Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Thanks, Quatorze...that made my morning! Yeah, Outofit, my post was kind of whiney and selfpitying. Me's sorry. That's what I get for posting after my bedtime! and two glasses of wine (or is that whine???)...and it sort of hijacked your thread. Again, me's sorry... If you hate your job, that's something that can be changed, isn't it? Or if it's not the work but the people, try seeing if there's something similar with a different group of people. Keep slogging through it, though. It will change, and if it doesn't change on it's own, you can take action to change it. And now, me's off to finish the canopy class! Yeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaahhhhh! Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Dewd, if I knew, I'd be able to fix it. As far as I can tell, Life just wants me to learn some serious lessons right now. It keeps taking friends away (one suicide, two friends, and three colleague deaths since end of August)...it keeps handing me financial issues. health stuff. Lots of other personal things. No love. Other people's health stuff. Shit like that. Yep, life. it keeps on ticking.... It'll last til it ends. And until then, I struggle and cry and fight back as hard as I can. But there's no fighting death, as it creeps in the night, reminding you of your mortality by taking dear friends away. In the mean time, I keep looking for the roses in the thorns. I keep looking at the incredible blue that is the sky. I reach for friends. I do volunteer stuff. I count my blessings. And most of all, I appreciate what I have - although not much, it is more than some, and all of it precious to me. Hope your sentence gets easier. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Dewd, you aren't kidding. Although I'm not angry...more like frustrated, lonely and totally, utterly exhausted. I wish I could just get a break...but that's not happening any time soon. Hang tight. If I can make it through this shit, you can make it through yours, too. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

I hadn't known of some of the issues, and knew of only one of the personalities. I was going to vote, but it has helped me decide who I was going to vote for. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

You'll still be too far away from me, Weid. Dammit, another cutie lost to the NW.... Sigh. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

LOL, I wonder what you guys are talking about????? Innocence is treasured and honored.... Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

In order of habitation: Burbank Belgium Burbank North Hollywood/Toluca Lake La Crescenta Burbank Yup, I'm a valley girl! Like, ohmigod! Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Why, um, jump and work...why do you ask? And scheduled to be so tomorrow...as I taste the sky for the first time in 6 weeks...at Perris, finishing the canopy class. Whhhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!! Oh, I'm sorry, is it winter where you are??? Are you cold? Is it snowing? Oops, not here...bright sunshiny day. Oh, the sun'll come out tomorrow, betcher bottom dollar that tomorrow, There'll be sun... Just thinking about tomorrow Chases away the cobwebs and the sorrow Yada yada... It's gonna be so bright, I'll have to wear shades!!!!!!!!! Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Olivia... I know you died yesterday. I know it was your time to leave. You were suffering so badly that I wanted you to die, isn't that awful? And I feel really guilty about that. But also glad God took you home again. I know I told you last time I saw you, and again in the email last week, but you are really special to me. You were one of the few people at my office who thought that me being a skydiver was a great idea. As you got sicker, you would always say you had to come fly with me, even just once. You would design jumpsuits for me, make them all sexy and totally not functional, but you drew them for me nonetheless. I kept the sketches, did you know that? I'll keep them a little while longer, o.k.? You always had a smile, even when you went bald. You would sneak up on me, grab my hair, and stick it over your head, and tell me "share, Michele. No fair you have all the hair". I remember going with you to buy hats. You carried them off so perfectly, your little face under a wide brim, grinning...platinum blond wig atop your piquant chinese face. You were never beaten, Olivia. You never gave in, and you never gave up. Sure, there were times we'd talk about what comes next...but you always made sure I knew you'd be fine. Even when we finally faced the truth that you wouldn't be fine here, we'd talk about angels' wings, and what kind you'd get. I always said you'd have tiny little wings to go with your pixie style - you, though, you always maintained you'd have the biggest, fluffiest whitest wings to be had. You told me God promised you that you could fly in heaven, 'cause your doctors here wouldn't let you fly with me. Love ya, 'Livy. Thank you for being my friend. I will always miss you, and carry with me the gift of yourself that you gave me. You got your wings, Olivia. You have the brightest, biggest, fluffiest whitest wings around. You are the Wing Queen. And when I'm in the sky, don't hesitate to whisk your wings across my heart...and smile along with me. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Um, notice that the word "farily" can be used several ways...not just as an alternative to "moderately"...and it isn't judgmental about my friends...more like judgmental about me....LOL! Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Jack, everything I have that is crossable is certainly crossed...including my eyes! See? Best of luck! Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

I hope you didn't take my post to be righteous and condemning...if so, I need to go back and re-write it. I agree, there are times that honesty is not the right option, as in my example (and I know from where I speak...) of the abusive husband. I also think that someone who knew they'd be whaled on for asking for help would not be approaching that avenue, either. I really hope that Carrie doesn't feel as if I was condemning her. That was truly not my intention. I just feel that a person, when faced with the normal family situation, that honesty is best, and it's an option I would (um, and have chosen to...) take. I also didn't say she should expect no judgment...for we all do, at some level or another, judge ourselves and others. One learns, one lives through it, and one carries on... Oh, and Vallerina? My diary is fairly judgemental! LOL!!!!! Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Hi, Seth I do agree with you...but honesty is the best policy in this situation, in my opinion. If grandma makes the decision to not talk to her because she screwed up and is asking for help, then that's also something Carrie needs to deal with. That's part of growing up. If nothing else, Carrie can be proud of being honest, and asking for assistance from a position of honesty. It is up to the other person how they will handle it. I remember the thread you refer to. I am not sure that the comparison applies... I do agree that if you're married to an abusive husband, telling him a fabrication to save your face from being whacked is prolly a good idea...however, that situation calls of other actions and steps. As always, my opinion stands for me, and you, faultless as you are, are welcome to have a different one (even if it is wrong! Hey - see the winky faces? I'm kidding here!!!!!!!!!) Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Perris and Elsinore, as stated. But it also sounds like you have a bit of a road trip, so maybe some of the Central/North Ca people can give their .02. Lummy? 'Bazz? Cornholio? Anywhere you go, have a ball! Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Hi, Carrie... For what it's worth, I've managed to make a mess lots of times in my life. I survived it, learned from it, and moved forward. You will too. I have a few thoughts I'd like to share with you. Where did you get the idea you'll be going to jail from a ticket which was only 12 mph over the speed limit? Was this something the courts informed you of, or was it something your friend informed you of? The reason I ask is because I spent the night in jail once - for a Failure To Appear on a registration violation. That was a bone fide, serious arrest warrent issued. FTA is far more significant than a simple fix-it ticket. And once I was arrested and I spent the night in jail, when I spoke with the judge the next morning, he looked at me and let me go. If you're going to go to jail, find a way to explain to the Judge the ramifications of it - screwing up your school, losing your place, losing your job. But take care to also explain that this has been a wake up call for you, and that you've taken it seriously. Most likely, the judge will take pity and give you some sort of modification - probation only, weekends in jail, I dunno, something like that. Next, I want to speak to the dishonesty aspect. You've been hit hard about it, and I will not continue in that thread. But I will say that Grandmas tend to be understanding people. You felt comfortable enough to go to her in the first place. You obviously trust her to some significant degree. I wish you had the courage to tell her exactly what was going on, and allow her to assist you from a factual basis. You have courage, Carrie. You laid it out here. You also jump out of planes for fun. Dishonesty is never a real solution, but I think you know that. Have you made an agreement to pay her back the money you borrowed from her? That would be a huge step in reestablishing your confidence in yourself, and demonstrating that appreciation to her as a person. Grandams also tend to have been around a little - and usually can see lies when they're told. She may already know that you were dishonest with her. Can you imagine how she'd feel if she knew you were lying, and you chose to go back and tell her the truth? I know if you were my child, I would have a much higher level of respect for you if you were to do that. It also shows her a respect for yourself - inasmuch as you are not willing to take money under less than honest circumstances, but are willing to be honest and handle your lumps as they arrive. Your dishonesty hurts no-one moreso than yourself. You will be left with a feeling of worthlessness, I think, and that is not the truth. You are a valuable person who's managed to box herself into a corner. But there is nothing impossible about getting out. Stand and be true to yourself, and as a result, you will be able to stand and be true to the rest of the world. It's really hard to correct the path you're on, but it's not too late, ever, to change something if it needs to be changed. You've taken it on the chin tonight, Carrie. But also understand that most of the people are saying what they're saying from a position of experience. They may not have said it nicely, or politely, or with any gentleness whatsoever, but they speak truly. When you've gotten past this rough patch, come back and re-read this, and realize how much these people care - they are willing to stake their friendship on a position which will be hard to swallow, but will only benefit you in the long run. PM me if you need to vent. You'll make it through this, like you've made it through other trials in your life...and you'll see the other side of this, too. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

LOL!!!!!!! I disagree that you don't have class...you most certainly do... Hey, Clay? I would say something, but it might destroy any class it's perceived I have.... Someday, some wonderful hunk will see me as more than just the bitter, dateless, cynical, sour old woman I've become, and do a Henry Higgins on me...and will earn my eternal gratitude in the process. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

I don't have that one yet. I have the Skydiver's Handbook though. Maybe I should get Volume 2 and read it... What I can promise you if that if I wrote it, it would not be packed with good info...I don't have much information in my skill bucket yet. Thank God I haven't depleted my luck bucket. I know - I'll write the Whoffos Survival Guide to Skydiving!!! Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

I received my t-shirt from the Tunnel/VS1...the one some of us won here a little bit ago. White Hanes Beefy-T, nice logo on the front, and the back has a great thought: "I am my wings"... Whoooooooooohoooooooooo, thanks, guys! Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

And it should stay that way for a few days... Beautiful skies yesterday, and despite the alleged cloud cover, the sun is shining right now. Time to go to work. I wish it was time to jump... Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Morning, Eric... I am expecting it any time...and actually, I was thinking about a version of a Parachuting Manual...as to the project, that will be kept to a minimum. Jess needs to live her life. I haven't got a life, so it doesn't matter much to me. But she needs to live! Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

LOL at Muenkel...Jessica is a wonderful writer with a slick sense of humor and irony. I love reading her posts. As for me, I gave some of my jumping stories to trusted colleagues and friends who are whuffos, to see if they liked them. I'll let you know if they liked them... Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

Wow. That must've been one rough delivery! Cute kid. (Actually, that's a pretty tough sentence on several levels. Bris/brith, (a bris on a girl?) brother giving birth...I almost called you "Uncle Lew"...) Congratulations, Uncle Kreg and Aunt Lew. I'm the proud Noni of Jonathan, 3 1/2, and Kayla, 2...was at Jonathan's delivery, held him before his father (my brother) did. I was babysitting Jonathan when Kayla was born. Jonathan and I are pretty close - he calls me on the phone all the time. Tells me what he's doing. He showed me a Rescue Hero tape that had "Noni stuff" on it...they end up parachuting in it. He talks about his flying Noni to everyone. Kayla is a glorious doll, and on Saturday came over to me and told me "Noni lots of hair. I love you. One two eight three." and then broke out into a huge grin. Kissed my feet, and then got bandaids on hers, too, like her Noni... They're my babies...someday I'll post some pix of them. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~

I wish I could. I had one year right after high school, and some credits here and there over the next 15 years...I hold a 4.0, too. I have a bunch of credits, but figuring out which ones transfer and which ones I have to repeat has been a bear. Some places accept some, but not others, and vice versa for the rest. I've been looking into CLEP, and have taken some of their exams. I've passed well on those, and will be finishing the general course sometime in the future. They are not widely accepted, either. Maybe someday I'll figure out what I'm good at, and get the education to support it. Ciels- Michele ~Do Angels keep the dreams we seek While our hearts lie bleeding?~