MM,
When I first started skydiving, I was surprised with how easily I leapt from the plane, devoid of any fear or nervousness. But, as I progressed through AFF/AFP, I noticed that I developed a lot of performance anxiety that was potentially more dangerous than a healthy fear of the planet that was rushing at me. Performance anxiety can be distracting, whereas a healthy, realistic fear/respect of skydiving can heighten awareness, judgement, and even enjoyment.
I've earned my A license and have been jumping regularly since. When I fun jump alone, I'm all smiles. But, when I'm invited on an RW jump, I get the nerves again. I don't like the idea of potentially wasting other people's jump money by messing up their skydive.
The reality is, however, that we learn by jumping. And, every skydiver has to go through the process of having bad jumps to get to the better ones. And, no skydiver gets to the better jumps without having others share their experiences.
So, I've tried to relax. I listen attentively to those who are kind enough to share knowledge (which is nearly everyone), and I try to accept criticism and praise equally.
So, while I still get the nerves, I'm working on relaxing and simply enjoying the fact that I'm lucky enough to be participating in the wonderful sport of skydiving.
Thank you to everyone who's accepted me so willingly. And, good luck MM. Welcome.
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