VanillaSkyGirl

Yes, I called and have an afternoon appointment to see my regular doctor, who wanted to see me before she referred me to a specialist. I am fucking dying of pain, though. I do not want to worry my family, but I am just dying here, so I am calling my mommy soon. I can't take it, anymore.

No comment.

NOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

Lmao...or the angle of attack...

It's definitely better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. Despite perhaps having a broken heart every once in a blue moon due to a relationship not working, I do not regret having loved totally and completely with all my heart. At least, I have known and shared some beautiful, intimate experiences. I have felt totally alive and experienced my emotions to the fullest. For the most part, I have amazing memories of men who have shared themselves and their love with me and who gave me their heart as willingly as I gave mine. What can be more beautiful and more rewarding than loving someone?

Thank you. I must go lie down...feeling really nauseaus...ugh...

No chocolate and no pain meds, either! Michele, I am LMAO, again, at your post. I LOVE you and you are for some reason making me totally hysterical with the "patootie pounding" posts! I am NOT upset at you or Mar or anyone AT ALL. I am simply wanting to prevent a hassle online. When I saw Mar's last post, I thought that it would be misrespresenting me and my views on jumping with a fricken cast on. I wanted to clarify that I am NOT going to do that and NEVER said that I would do that before I was bombarded with posts and PMs about it. You know that most people don't read through entire threads, and they would be posting and PMing me to death with their views on this subject. I already thanked Mar for being so frank via a PM. I was responding so the world wouldn't be pissing me off by sending "don't do it" PMs. I am pissed off enough as it is. Mar, Michele, Sunny, I love you guys...as well as everyone else that wrote or called me. Please let that whole other thing about "jumpng with a cast"go. I think that it's a lame (lol!) idea! Let's get back to sending me love and vibes, please...

Hi Aubrey, as you know I am still somewhat new with 183 jumps, so take my advice with a grain of salt. Yes, you are bigger, so you will probably feel more sore with less jumps. I wholeheartedly agree with everyone who is telling you to stretch before and afterwards. It makes a HUGE difference. I am guilty of not doing it myself most of the time, but I need to make it a routine. When I have stretched for tunnel camp, I have seen the incredible difference that it makes. Of course, also stay hydrated and fueled with food and water, too, as Kris has recommended. Aubrey, honey, when I was going through AFF, I felt exactly the same way after only one jump or two. It's perfectly natural in the beginning. Koz2000 is right in saying that it is you coming down from the mental and adrenaline high. I know that you are no longer a student, but Aubrey you are feeling that adrebaline rush based on the amazing jumps that you have already been exposed to. At your jump numbers, I would never have felt comfortable jumping with so many people, especially knowing that they would be freeflying around me. That is really, really scary for someone who just got his license. I am amazed that you weren't totally freaked out by the mere thought of it! You were probably anxious as hell right before you left the plane. It was certainly a popular and exciting rush of a jump for the others, who have hundreds and hundreds more jumps than you do. If they were keyed up from having had that jump, I can only imagine what that must have been like for you. I think that you probably would be less mentally exhausted if you did a few more 2 or 3-ways before doing another "catch Aubrey" load. That was one wild ride from what I heard. Also, the "depression" seems to be common. When I cannot jump and want to, I feel really down. It will get better, Aubrey. You are probably down from not being able to jump when you really, really wanted to. It is a VERY enjoyable sport, once the mental and emotional aspects are able to be put into place. I had similar emotions in the beginning. I predict that it will even out a bit more as time goes on.

I NEVER did think that. This is directed to everyone, in general, not Mar: Please reread the posts that I wrote. Mirochristie posted something that has NOTHING to do with what I would do. I NEVER said anything to anyone online or off about jumping before I am healed. I would NEVER do that. I am not irrational...nor is my mind easily swayed by what others say or write to me! I have NEVER even broken any bones before, and I plan to never break anything else if I can help it. I am quite conservative and want to heal properly. I am a VERY conservative skydiver and a conservative person, in general. For the record, my intent was never to even do a tandem. This idea was recommended to me by someone else, and I was going to look into it tomorrow. However, I would never do it if it is not adviseable or acceptable by the tandem masters at Elsinore. Even if it was, I may not have done it because I worry more than others about things like hitting the door on the way out, having a tumble as we land, etc. Like I said...I am quite conservative with my body and my health. I am NEVER one to loose my reasoning. Those who know me know how ludicrous this idea of jumping with a cast on is to me. Mar, I owe you an apology if my initial post was directed towards you and was not coming across the way that I intended. Thank you so much for caring and for helping me and the others who may be reading this. You're a doll! (I mean that.)

Oh my gosh... I am not sure about the g-string, though. I prefer my men...er...man (?) nude. Sigh...wouldn't it be nice if someone could just kiss my boo-boo and make it all better?

Oh Maggie, you are so sweet, fun and beautiful inside and out! Meeting you and your sweetheart, Jason, was one of the highlights of the Memorial Day weekend for me. You are both so loving and kind, and you both seemed so very happy flying in Perris. Maggie our PM sister jump was silly and sooo much fun! I loved every minute of it, even though I was upside down at times. The only sad part was that poor Jake was sooo disappointed that he didn't get the perfect picture with all FOUR of us in it. That was really sad, but there is always next time, right? Also, I noticed that Jake (DaGimp) took some cute PICS of you and Jason exiting the skyvan, not to mention our fun PM pics. (You're so beautiful, Maggie.

It sounds great! Have fun & jump some for me!

That's sooo wonderful, Clay.

Sunny, I love ya so much, girlie. Thank you sooooo much for calling me. Everyone is still jumping out here, so I haven't had too many calls. Gosh girlie, I really, really, really appreciate that you called me so very, very much. Sorry for telling you about the other hardships that I am going through in my life and, basically, blubbering my little heart out. You are the sweetest girl, ever. I am so glad that we're friends. All my love, my friend, ROSA

Thank you for the post, Christie, and please don't worry about it. I am not upset or anything. Also, I am not going to jump until I am totally healed. I think that my friends overreacted because they were being protective of me. I love that they responded by wanting to "kick my ass"...lol! They obviously care about me and didn't want for me to get even more hurt. I probably would have said something similar to them. the funny thing is that I would never even have considered jumping like this. I have no idea why they would think that I would, except that maybe they were trying to make me laugh? Please don't take it personally. Thank you for being a friend.

Sorry, I am totally straight and into quality, not quantity regarding my sexual escapades. If you yourself are having sex with countless men in the quest to make your sex life less "boring", that's your business, Tuna.

I haven't done any of these things... Aren't your options somewhat limited?

I'm curious, so what did the man (men) do then?

Yes, yes, yes...you made me laugh. I had been weepy until I read your last posts!!! Thank you, Michele. Thank you, too, Sunny for the posts and PMs. You are sooo sweet. I can hardly wait to see you, again.

Omg...WTF!?! Seriously, WTF did I say or do to make anyone think that I would keep jumping with my broken ankle? How funny!!! I repeat...I promise NOT to jump while my ankle is still healing...except MAYBE to do a tandem (if I can afford it and the doctor approves it) for my birthday. I MAY show up at the DZ every now and then to see a few people, so please do NOT jump the gun & immediately begin to kick my ass!!! By the way, Michele, I know how strong you are...you could easily snap me in two. I mean, you could seriously kick most people's (men or women) bum, so, yes, I finds the mere thought of that very, very frightening!!! Just so you all know, I will not be able to jump anyway because I have decided to sell my main. I want to upsize a little for when I am able to jump, again. See how good I am? Hmmm...me thinks that everyone is taking pleasure in the thoughts of kicking my little ass ...

I don't take these tests too seriously, but it's fun to see the results. Here are mine: Rosa, you are mildly left-hemisphere dominant while showing a slight preference for auditory processing. This overall combination seems to indicate a well-working blend of logic and judgment and organization, with sufficient intuition, perception and creativity to balance that dominance. You will at times experience conflict between how you feel and what you think which will generally be resolved in favor of what you think. You will find yourself interested in the practical applications of whatever material you have learned or whatever situation you face and will retain the ability to refine whatever knowledge you possess or aspects of whatever position you are in. By and large, you will orient yourself toward intellectual activities and structure. Though not rigid, you will schedule yourself, plan, and focus on routine and continuity of operations, rather than on changes and disruptions When changes or disruptions occur, you are likely to consider first how to ensure that such disruptions do The same balance is reflected in your sensory preference. You will tend to be reflective and measured in your interaction style. For the most part, you will be considered objective without being cold and goal-oriented while retaining the capacity to listen to others. Preferentially you learn by listening and maintaining significant internal dialogues with yourself. Nevertheless, you have sufficient visualization capabilities to benefit from using graphs, charts, doodles, or even body movement to enhance your comprehension and memory. To the extent that you are even implicitly aware of your hemispheric dominance and sensory style, you will feel most comfortable in those arenas which emphasize verbal skills and logic. Teaching, law, and science are those that stand out among the professions, along with technical sales and management.

OMG!!! (Christie, sweetie, I love ya, but I do not agree with your advice to me.) Everyone please calm down...Sunny, Mar, I would NEVER jump with a cast on. I wouldn't even think about it. Kris told me to consider doing a tandem for my birthday, but I will only do it if my doctor approves. I am considering it as I have NEVER done one. Seriously, though, I would NEVER want to complicate my injuries. I promise to be a very good patient. Please don't fly out here in July with intentions to kick my ass, Sunny One.

Yes, you're right. I'm trying very hard to keep things in perspective...so many people have had such serious injuries that I shouldn't even complain, right? I'm so sorry, everyone, but this has been very hard for me...harder, lonelier, and more miserable than I thought that it would be. I can't even really sleep due to pain and discomfort. I promise to try to complain less and to do something constructive while I am not jumping. Thank you for the posts, everyone. I really, really, really am needing them, and I thank you all so much for the love and support. Love you all...

I wrote this in my post in the Bonfire thread, but I wanted to post it here, as well: We have lost a great man and great leader in President Reagan. Not only was he a great president, but he was a genuinely good man, which is so very rare. He was such a big part of my life and will be truly missed. At least now, he is free from the illness that he was bound to while on earth. Poor Nancy...theirs was such a touching, beautiful love story. His beautiful, romantic love letters to her have made me deeply admire him even more than I already did on a level that was surprisingly personal. His obvious love and respect for Nancy, his ability to love so wholly and purely, his ability to recognize how rare unconditional love is, his gratitude towards Nancy for giving him the gift of love...speaks volumes of him as a man. It only proves his intelligence that he managed to figure out one of the greatest mysteries of life...not only being happy with himself, but being truly happy and completely content with the one that he loves. I find that highly admirable and inspirational. May you finally rest in peace, Mr. President Ronald Reagan.

We have lost a great man and great leader in President Reagan. Not only was he a great president, but he was a genuinely good man, which is so very rare. He was such a big part of my life and will be truly missed. At least now, he is free from the illness that he was bound to while on earth. Poor Nancy...theirs was such a touching, beautiful love story. His beautiful, romantic love letters to her have made me deeply admire him even more than I already did on a level that was surprisingly personal. His obvious love and respect for Nancy, his ability to love so wholly and purely, his ability to recognize how rare unconditional love is, his gratitude towards Nancy for giving him the gift of love...speaks volumes of him as a man. It only proves his intelligence that he managed to figure out one of the greatest mysteries of life...not only being happy with himself, but being truly happy and completely content with the one that he loves. I find that highly admirable and inspirational. May you finally rest in peace, Mr. President Ronald Reagan.