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what DZ are even around there. I think I may have to go to California. Maybe Elsinore to jump. Smoke

Your not well, this is plain to see. I am just not really the BAckpacking kinda a girl. I do enough packing skydiving! But yeah, I heard it is a great place, nice and cold. Smoke

Bring it on BABY! Nothin but love here! Smoke

JT, will you hold me? I'm Scared..... Idaho could be really dangerous! Smoke

I know, but I am still in shock over this whole thing. I mean honestly. Why Idaho? Smoke

Now I'm pisssed... nobody ever flirts with me! Smoke

Hey guys! I am getting stationed in Idaho. Can somebody please tell me what the H%$%$#&# there is to do in Idaho? And are there any of you from Idaho? Blue Skies, Smoke

I dont know if Im just getting too old, I dont know what the deal is. OK, so the idea was, 4 days vacation, first skydiving, followed by surfing. Two extreme sports on a four day vacation trip. Sounds wild. The anxiety was tremendous. First jump on Friday was okay, then I was supposed to get on 8 and head to Cal. Second jump, got sick, high anxiety, felt sick the rest of the day. Kept thinking about catching waves after not having done it all winter. Got real, real moody and stayed that way all the way to Cal. I know I was real tired, lack of sleep, right before going to Eloy Thrus night, my next door neighbor comes out and wants some action, that got me about 3 hrs sleep that night. Do I want to go skydiving spend the whole time getting laid? Skydiving. On the former, been there, done that. Next day, get up, wake up, wake up some more, get on the wetsuit, get the board, head out to Turmo for some practice before tomorrow. Waves look pretty violent, choppy conditions, doesnt look safe, adrenaline kicks in, anxiety turns on, nerves rattling like crazy. Heartbeat was so fast I had to wait a while before going out. It had been a long time, so Im out catching mostly whitewater as opposed to getting crushed, didnt get enough speed for a ride that day. Waves breaking near shore and breaking up early. Paddled out with the other surfers, suddendly, surfer comming towards me, wipes out, no leash, his board flies in mid air striaght towards my head nose first, in a split second threw my board aside and "karate chopped" his board on the underside just before it struck me in the forehead. REAL close call. Beach party at Mission Beach that night with the other surfers, yea and Im talking all cool like, "dude, Im gonna rip tomorrow, ect", trying to get pumped up and just not ready for it. Next day, Mission beach, choppy as hell and even more fearsome, getting beaten up pretty bad like bricks hitting me in the face it seemed like. Anxiety tripling, but got a few short term rides before the board sank, not enough speed. Like hell I was going out there any furthur, dont have a death wish for this sport either. Getting real moody. Next day, super choppy at Turmo, cold wind blowing through, nothing to catch on a shortboard unless you just like wasting your time, plenty of windsurfers out that day. No surfers in the area. There are some skydiver/ surfers on the forum. Is this just a bad time for me? The anxiety, the moodiness, the low energy levels? Or is it that I need to seperate skydiving and surfing, like oil and water, they dont mix? Is two extreme sports one too much? Little confused right now, but at least I know I wont be doing anything for a while, Im out of money after this trip, with two MORE surfboards being shaped right now that I have to pay for next month. That makes four in the quiver. The pic is all about me not wanting to take off on mount mother fucker, you can see why. Shhhhitttt!!! Glad to be back at work.

A nice big wet Fuck right back at ya! And whats wrong with " You guys" ? Smoke

I havent seen you skydive so I cant complement you on something I dont know about, but if its any help, you are even cuter in your new picture than you were in the last one.

Hi. Just wanted to give some feedback here about anxiety. I feel this same kind of anxiety at the DZ for no apparent reason. Even the smell of diesel fuel does it to me. Now what is this anxiety? Let me move a step furthur. Im pretty much a surfer and have a lot of time and money in getting up to par as a shortboarder. Anyway, on the waves, I noticed the same exact type of anxiety as what I experience on the DZ, especially right before I go out. As a matter of fact, its a lot worse on the waves than it is in the air. I dont know why. But I can tell you this, it isnt "skydiving" thats giving you the anxiety, its the fact that you are involved with an extreme sport. So if you decide to give this up for something else, dont expect to feel any better, because believe me when I say you wont. You may just be in a bad phase, like I was this entire weekend, can happen anytime for any reason, but it does go away with time.

Sounds like you need new gear. It is a buyers market right now. You can get a SWEET deal for cheap, as stated earlier. And still be able to go and jump. Your friends are just that, friends. On top of that....they are also skydivers. They know how it is. Smoke

I decided to come back and post to see if it is working today.

Blue Oyester _Don't Fear the Reaper! I love that Song....it ROCKS! Smoke

S%#@!@ I just felt my thighs grow bigger just by the mention of Jack-in-Box. UGHH. Could we get any greasier!

Thank you for the great Pics! I hope that every body knows that we are not war loving crazies. And that there is good prevailing. SMoke

well as stated earlier " Good Job". You just need to go home and rest, eat some powdered donuts, and strawberry milk! You deserve it. Smoke

High: THat my friends are strong, great, supportive friends! Low: I have to leave them next week FOr a very long time.

YOU ROCK! That is so great. See what you can do when you set your mind to it! Smoke

just seeing if this shows up.Signed on this morning and all the forums are same as when I logged off last night. dropdeded

High: Finding an old friend whom I have not talked to in 5 years! Low: That friend lives in California and I will not be able to see him anytime soon.

COme on girl! Keep the postive in sight. I will come out and jump with you! I plan on being there sometime in June.. It will all fall into place with the gear. My first rig was crazy. I don't know to many people that would have jumped it . And if that rig is the only one that you feel comfy in, then it is worth the long trip early in the AM to get there for it. Keep the chin-up. BLues Skies Smoke

It is really hard to do. I have moved from ohio to California. And other places. All on my own. And you can make it work, one way or the other. And If I where you...no matter where you go find the local DZ. The people are almost allways welcoming. And you could make some good money Packing. Just depends on how hard you want to work. But no matter what, you can pull yourself through anything, just have faith.

where the #%^%@#(% is JT? He should have been here by now? Smoke

Is there any place that I can send Flowers? To the funeral home? Or House? And where should I order from? Did anyone know her favorite flower or plant? Thanks Smoke