thats where i find myself, i have only jumped once(tandem), and im going again next wek to do a second tandem before i start my AFF program, and i find myself reading every damn forum on here aout malfunctions, or safety, and trying to find any video i can get my hands on that is about skydiving, or has something to do with it, and it doesnt help that i live with my mother and grandmother, and they are always saying that its a stupid and dangerous thing to do,and they are always saying that people are dying in the sport( i know they are just saying that shit , to get me scared so i wont do it any more), but i cant blame them, but on my first jump, i couldnt think/talk/even move(as you can see in my video), but i soon as my feet left that plane, all my worries were gone, and when i landed, couldnt wait to do it again, and now i find myself again a week or so before i go, getting nervous, and reading every damn thing i can find on skydiving!!, lol