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i really could use an attitude like that right now. my 1st ( I know, BEER! ) time to spend the holidays alone....and it's not fun. :( But you make a very good point Daiz, and that cheers me up just a bit. :) thanks! --------------------------------------------------------

Thanks!

I ran across this today, written about a certain skydiver (I'll never tell) this summer. it is unfinished, and will probably remain unfinishd. I like it better that way. I am haunted by these visions of you... I wake with your taste on my lips and your voice on my skin. Mornings spent, praying for sleep to return. Aching to fall back into your bed, to feel your hands in my hair, my nails in your back.... ------------------------------------------------------

exactly what I was going to say Jib, well done.

hmmmm. I'm thankful for my life and the lives of my family and friends. I'm thankful for the calls i've received today as this is my 1st *ahem!* pre-second thanksgiving away from home. And I'm especially thankful that I'm not a professional painter for i would surely be unemployed...I'm trying to paint this effing house and doing a shit job of it. so there. :)

Happy Turkey Day Perk! Love you bunches!

So, i've figured out what I need. i need to find a gay man, age 24 - 28, to hang out with. Best of both worlds. He's a man, and that's nice to have around (broken sinks and such), he's gay (no threat to my bf in TX), and he's not a girl (for whatever reasons i always end up w/psychotic girl friends ). Now, how do i go about finding one of these for my very own? hmmm..think think think.

uggg, that makes me sick. Any man who has to drug a woman to get her in bed should be shot, castrated, and hung in Times f*cking Square. God, this makes me so angry!!!!

awwww, CONGRATS!!!!! How exciting for you both! I wish him/her all the happiness in the world, and plenty of blue skies. Cieux bleus, amanda

whoa!

jump money is good. and no one ever said i can't quit my job and move back to tx when ever i'm good and damn ready. (or when the house sells)

lol, fun! *begins counting pennies from piggy bank* So whaddya charge these days? buck fitty?

*blushing* Thank you. could you please collect your things And I can feel your fingers begin to lose their grip upon my mind and now my heart can breathe. Why I let you crush me, I'll never know. The need to be embraced by something other than myself just got too strong I suppose. I knew your destruction before I let you in, so the fault is mine. I shouldn't be so quick to strip myself completely, I should learn to think before I place myself in your path wearing nothing but words on my skin. I should have hidden my heart from your view. i let you take a piece of my body from me and you tossed it aside to rot in the forgotten ashes of those who came before. And my eyes will betray me if I do not stop these tears that weep for what I have done. though my smile is brighter and my voice tends to sing when your name parts my lips, my body is bleeding and tearing inside. you will never be mine for the taking. yet I find these chains too heavy for my wings, and something will not let me fly. something has fastened itself to my tongue and made me unable to speak. And it is here that I will die, and maybe you were just my last attempt to live; to breathe the air that feeds my soul. And maybe this sudden explosion of poetry will be the last shade of beauty to drip from my fingers. your whispers of love songs are the last to tear my heart. Not very good, but i like it anyway

ok, i was in a similar situation. my fiance didn't hyperventilate, he just got EXTREMELY angry. i stressed and put off my first jump for a very long time (i was working @ the dz, maifest whuffo). finally i just told him that i needed to do this for myself. because i wanted to know i could do it. blah blah blah, "i have to do this for me, i really want you to support me, but if you can't that's fine. i understand your fear blah blah blah." i just kinda made it all about a self confidence issue. finally he said, "ok, you should do this" so i did and things were fine. if you can get her to do a tandem, that'd be the ideal situation, but if not, just really tell her that you need her to support this. for you. hope that helps. cieux bleus, amanda

You'll be fine, {{{{VIBES}}}}

Has a job!!!!!! yes boys and girls i've been offered a consulting position at the #1 Metabolic Weight Los center in the country!!! and I'm pretty f*ckin excited about the pay check! So, i start monday. I can't believe I actually found a job in my major (psychology before you ask. and yes, i will use it every day. oddly enough). so WOO HOO! now, everyone send vibes that i don't screw it up and get fired before i get my 1st check. lol

7am, breakfast on the cold concrete porch. smell of fresh clean snow, and Heather's roses. They are blooming, through ice and snow. Her mother says Heather is sending her love. Hot tears burn frozen cheeks, cigarette trembling in my bare hands. The morning silence is never really silence. Sliced by the constant screaming pain of death and cancer and things left unsaid. Their pain weighs heavy on my shoulders, shows deep within my eyes. carry their crosses, stitch up their scars. Sweep up the pieces of broken lives, put them out by the curb. maybe tomorrow, it won't hurt so much. 11.24.03

well, i'm sure you did an awsome job on the cart. God freebird's sounds good. cold pizza and hot coffee for me this morning. breakfast of champions.

lol, Monster Carts staring AggieDave, NEW to the WB this Fall!

Big {{{{hug}}}} for turtle. I didn't know....wow

hey, i feel your pain. I've been waiting on an order from them for 3 weks. said it would take 5 days. hmmm.

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i think mine would say FUK EWE or something equally stupid.

you should come to CO, i'm bored too. oh wait, i'm also broke as hell...nevermind....fun things cost money. Curses!