I don't really know what it was after my 5th level that kept me away for 29 days!! You read about the nervousness that people experience, but honestly I don't know where my came from. Maybe the fear of failure. Hell, in this sport if you fail a level and are alive at the end, it is a learning experience, Right!?! Well, I got up yesterday and I knew that I had to jump, or I would forever make excuses of why I couldn't go to the DZ~ the DZ is only 5 minutes from my house!! Anyway, I was at the DZ by 8:30am and was set to go on the first load. My JM was late, so I got bumped off!! I was so bummed!! For the average wack job, that would have been no problem, but for me, it gave me just a little more time to build up that fear factor!! BREATH DEEP AND DON'T FORGET TO EXHALE!! And get this, I was on the ground!! I was very nervous!! My JM finally showed up!! You know everything happens for a reason! He Rocked!! The once nervous wack job, became a very excited wack job!! I finally felt so ready, so calm