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I am sorry about my last post. I do not know Michele and it was out of line. I guess a bottle and a half of Cabarnet and my jealousy got the best of me. I hope the TV thing went well and it ends up making Michele and Skydiving look good. My dad stopped paying for everything just a few years ago, so I have no room to talk. Eating Crow for breakfast , Rachel

Thanks...I have never met this Michelle but the word at Perris is that she is a media hungry and is destined to to give skydiving a bad name. She obviously does not want to hear of anyones turmoils but hers and I guess her only problem in life is when Daddy is going to send the next check. I guess she has a lot of money and has the looks and hot body to get on TV but she pisses everyody off. I would rather remain in the shadows with my meagerness, remain non-judgemental, and have no limelight. Rachel

It seems you have no problem discussing every aspect of your life on this forum, what is wrong with me discussing a significant lifestyle issue of mine? You have no idea how hard it is to deal with the issues I have of being overweight, hearing the comments and laughs from others when they think I am not listening. People of my size (getting smaller) are a huge minority (oxymoron?) at a dropzone. I am used to being singled out for my sexual preference in society, now it is my size at the dropzone. I cannot change my sexual preference but I can change my size. I dont care about what socity thinks but I do care what skydivers think. You should put yourself in my shoes as an overweight woman at the dropzone instead of the heroin-chic bodies all the rest of you have, then you would understand. Rachel

Her behavior off the dropzone is tolerable, I do sometimes wish she was quieter but like in every relationship, you take the good with the bad. She is very eloquent and very outgoing. We have a blast when we go out and when we are alone. On the dropzone, she morphs into a overbearing annoyance. I guess I just see other peoples reactions to her and I am embarassed for her. This behavior very recently came to a head at the dropzone and she has become quite the topic of discussion. Rachel

Aside from her weight and lack of discipline, another big issue I have with her is her behavior at the dropzone. We are both relatively new skydivers and I am very humble and pretty much a listener. She acts like she already has a pro rating. She tends to be very abrasive to others at the dropzone and most people roll their eyes when she comes around because of her attitude. I don't know is this is just an overcompensation of artificial confidence to overcome her fears or true arrogance. She tends to be slightly arrogant at all times but it is at all new levels at the DZ. I want to distance myself from her when she starts in with her loud sessions, whether it be on the Otter or in the packing area. I think she has confidence confused with arrogance. Anyone else have this problem with new jumpers or worse, your significant other? Rachel Rachel

I am not a troll..People at Perris and Elsinore know me and my situation. Sorry guys, didn't mean to stereotype you, it was said in jest (kinda). Anyway, there are other issues too, this on is just the one that drives me the most crazy. I feel that this is not entirely a weight issue. I do love her and I think the thing that hurts me most is her lack of commitment to her word and the fact that she refuses to talk about it. It is more of an integrity issue. Rachel Rachel

My relationship has come to a crossroads. When my girlfriend and I started skydiving, we both agreed to go on a strict diet, mainly for health reasons but also for safety. I have had friends tell me privately that my weight was going to impede my skydiving. I really want to learn freeflying but I am told that my size would prohibit this. I have lost 35 pounds in 3 months so far and I hope to loose 90 more. The problem is, my partner refused to stick to the diet. She has gained weight if anything. I am truly concerned about her health and safety. I try and be supportive but whenever I bring it up she goes into a tirade. I feel shallow that I am going to let this issue divide us. Guys, you are experts at being shallow...Am I being too critical? Rachel