You’re normal. You’re different from some people, and more voluble than others. Nothing wrong with either of those. You can do a search on dz.com on the terms fear and freefall, and come up with a lot of threads, including this one, where I describe my gut-wrenching fear on my DRCP jumps.
Most people either just quit because of it, or don’t talk about it because it’s not cool to be scared. Some day your willingness can make you a much better coach or instructor; it’ll be your secret power. Really.
Wendy P.