You already are.
I'm 110 jumps in, although about 3/4 of those were a decade ago....and getting back into the flow is like starting all over with regards to the fear. On the drive to the DZ I'm looking for excuses to turn around. Walking up to manifest I'm thinking about reasons that I should just hang out and watch. Riding up in the airplane I'm thinking about all of the things that could possibly go wrong.
And then I remind myself, I've been well trained, even if I am inexperienced. My gear is in great shape, I've done a thorough gear check, and I had someone else do a secondary pin check. I trust the people that I'm jumping with, that we're all going to do what we've planned. I have backup plans in case something goes awry, and I have backup plans for the backup plans in case they really go awry. Finally, I remind myself what those first 5 seconds are going to feel like, which is why I do what I do.
Then when the door opens, I take a deep breath and get ready to exit. And for the next 5 minutes or so, I get to experience something that is incomparable to anything else that I do in my life.