The things we've done and seen

[Lumberjack 0]

Do the things you've seen and done, the experiences you've had separate you from people who didn't share them? Looking back now at memories that sometimes don't feel like memories I find myself unable to talk about them to people in my life now. They hang around my soul like tombstones that will never leave me, they visit me in my dreams and daytime thoughts. Am I the only one to feel like this?

[quade 4]

Your mind is the sum of its experiences.
It's one of the few things that makes you truly an individual.

quade -
The World's Most Boring Skydiver

[wolfriverjoe 1,523]

No you aren't the only one.

We call non jumpers "whuffos" because they don't understand what we do.
Combat veterans tend to gather together to support one another.

Even quilters and scrapbookers do it.

The whole principle of the "support group" is that the person is surrounded by others who have gone through a similar experience and can relate.

It sounds like you are having a tough time.

Finding someone who understands because they've been there and talking it over can often help. Good luck.

"There are NO situations which do not call for a French Maid outfit." Lucky McSwervy

"~ya don't GET old by being weak & stupid!" - Airtwardo

[promise5 17]

I know this feeling, sometimes you can even be with people you love dearly and yet feel this way. Finding others that have gone through things you have helps in alot of ways. Not a cure all, but does help

No matter how slowly you say oranges it never sounds like gullible.
Believe me I tried.

[skygypsie 2]

Do the things you've seen and done, the experiences you've had separate you from people who didn't share them? Looking back now at memories that sometimes don't feel like memories I find myself unable to talk about them to people in my life now. They hang around my soul like tombstones that will never leave me, they visit me in my dreams and daytime thoughts. Am I the only one to feel like this?
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Affecting life occurences; traumatizing or not, tend to cling to every fiber of your mind & every cell of your being. It will affect every relationship you have, every event you participate in, your character, your morals, your self esteem, your existence...as long as you let it in.
Sharing with those you are involved in is not always the best thing to 'let it out to deal with it'.
They, like 'whuffos' may not always understand, They may offer empathy, a nod, a hug,a symapthetic look, even genuine compassion & remorse for your troubling soul, but you know they really don't understand!
Sometimes they may come back to haunt you for sharing your deepest, darkest.
There is no one exempt from life experiencing traumas. Perhaps we suffer or differ in degrees & exposure, but never a person totally free from the darkside of life !
Therapy, meds, diagnosis' of PSTD aside....put those memories in an emotional, pyschological box. Put the box in a safe place; under the bed, top of a shelf, in a drawer.. in the regions of your mind & soul...call on it only when you are comfortable & need to, call on prayer.
Best Wishes ~Blessings & BlueSkies ~

[promise5 17]

Just wanted to add something that I had to learn. Don't let a past negative experience/experiences define your life. YOU define your life. I refuse to be called a survivor because I refuse to have a past experience define who I am. Yes, its part of my past and I have been changed because of it. But, its how I choose to let it affect my future that is up to me. Sometimes the roads we travel seem like hell and it takes a lot of hard work and determination to keep going. But, you can find a peace in your soul. Believe me you can. I have

No matter how slowly you say oranges it never sounds like gullible.
Believe me I tried.