Coreece 190
QuoteNo, it's the opposite of humbling, it's unbelievably narcissistic. The idea that the most powerful being in the universe is orchestrating the lives of those around you so that you can get something good. It's the most self centred thing I've ever heard.
Ultimately, it's not about me...it's about sacrafice and dying to yourself, but sometimes there are a few perks.
QuoteQuoteI would really like to see a mathematical equation for that one...anybody up for the challenge?
What the hell do you mean?



Jakee, I love you man...you crack me up!

jakee 1,611
QuoteUltimately, it's not about me...it's about sacrafice and dying to yourself, but sometimes there are a few perks.
You just said it was about you. You said that God was orchestrating your life because he wanted you to have better things than you had before.
You think that out of all the people out there trapped in unfulfilling, even destructive, relationships, God has decided that you deserve better. Because you're special, because you're important. Yeah, real humbling...
QuoteJakee, I love you man...you crack me up!
Glad to be of service - but seriously though, WTF were you talking about?
billvon 3,133
I take it you've never made beer or tried to keep a bad wound sterile . . .
Coreece 190
QuoteYou just said it was about you. You said that God was orchestrating your life because he wanted you to have better things than you had before.
I said God works all things for the good of those who love him...but I think your idea of good is different from what God thinks is good, and what I've learned it to be.
The truth is I'm not married to a hot nurse...I'm not married at all...I thought we were playing it out...It was a miserable attempt at showing how God could use a bad thing and turn it into a good thing...but there were some elemets of truth in there.
I did date a hot student nurse in college for awhile, and later found a paralegal/law student who I met in a bar with whom I had a baby...the first few years were marvelous, pratically living as an athiest...but then it became a living hell...it was the beginning of the end for me...God started to break me down...I began to reap what I've sown.
I had worked hard in various legit business and got along wonderfully with those I liked, but I was also a hard heated cynical bastard and schemer...by the age of 12 I had already played a significant role in bringing down a local franchise of a national chain...It hurts me to think that If God didn't break me, I could very likely be among the secret handshaking elite helping to drive this country into the ground for their own personal gain...
Anyways, I had it all...but after three years with my family, all my greed, pride and lust for the world turned against me and I practically lost just about everything over night...I praticaully lived in hell for 3 years forced to live and befreind all the people I despised and continued to indulge in my own evil desires...God continued to break me down, and it felt like anything I did, no matter how close I came to rebuling my life God would crush it...I didn't understand it...my plans should've worked, they always have...but all these bizzare coincedences and people reniggin on their word and deals fallin through just broke me down even more...
I finally said fuck it and ended up in Vegas for my final stand against God...

It was my last chance to to hold onto everything me...my achievements, my pride, my chance to make everything "right" in the wrong way...and I almost made it...what a blast, shit was looking good...I thought "I'm gonna come out this looking better than when I was king of my own world."
But noooooooooo...Vegas tore me up like the bitch I was. I wasn't fit to live in their world. I was finally completly broken, humiliated, and ashamed...
On that long, humbling ride back to Detroit all I pretty much did was contemplate God.
A few months later I ended up in Clearwater Beach, FL for a Job at the Golf Channel, but that fell through as well...but by this time I had started studying the Bible and was completely fascinated with the character of Jesus...and was completely at peace. I just prayed and asked the Lord not to break me like he did in California and Vegas...I said I don't completly understand this Jesus Guy, but I believe that He is your Son...I really need you this time, everything I do now gets crushed, just show me whats up...
...And that's it...that was the end of that life.
I'd love to go on and tell you all the amazing things that has happened to me since then and all the adventures around the country and how God has restored me but I've gone on long enough and I usually just save those stories for those who want to believe.
All I'll say for now is I find it amazing that when I was in Clearwater, I had nothing but God and it was the happiest, greatest most adventurous time of life.
I don't have nearly as much worldy possessions as I had when I lived for myself, but all I need is provided and I'm happy with what I have and finally free from that bondage....I'm free from the bondage of myself and free to live for others as God directs me.
I have resources and places available to me around the world for God to use me when needed, and He does....There is even a place in England that I have yet to visit...maybe I'll meet you some day.
And just in case you're wondering, I actually did try to go it alone and fulfill my own ungodly desires once again...and the same thing happned as before...crushed. I basically used up all my get out of jail free cards...I'm a slave to Christ, and I like it here, don't bother trying to break me out.

Now I apologize for going on and on...feel free to break it down if you want. People can call me a weak ignorant puppet sheep, but I simply don't care...I am a sheep...a sheep is a stupid animal that just tends to go off in it's own direction and I need guidance.
...and that guidance sets me at peace and I'm happier than ever...The only problem is that sinful nature still in me that pops up from time to time and I want it gone...I expect God to fulfill His promise in making that happen, just as he fufills all his promises...ultimately for His own glory.
jakee 1,611
QuoteI said God works all things for the good of those who love him...but I think your idea of good is different from what God thinks is good, and what I've learned it to be.
No, this is your idea of good we've been talking about. It was your lie, not mine.
QuoteThe truth is I'm not married to a hot nurse...I'm not married at all...I thought we were playing it out...It was a miserable attempt at showing how God could use a bad thing and turn it into a good thing...but there were some elemets of truth in there.
Really? We've not found any yet.
QuoteAnyways, I had it all...but after three years with my family, all my greed, pride and lust for the world turned against me and I practically lost just about everything over night...I praticaully lived in hell for 3 years forced to live and befreind all the people I despised and continued to indulge in my own evil desires...God continued to break me down, and it felt like anything I did, no matter how close I came to rebuling my life God would crush it...I didn't understand it...my plans should've worked, they always have...but all these bizzare coincedences and people reniggin on their word and deals fallin through just broke me down even more...
Right... you make unsavoury deals with unsavoury people, and the only possibly explanation for them fucking you over is that God made them do it. Yeah, ok dude.
QuoteI finally said fuck it and ended up in Vegas for my final stand against God...Laugh
It was my last chance to to hold onto everything me...my achievements, my pride, my chance to make everything "right" in the wrong way...and I almost made it...what a blast, shit was looking good...I thought "I'm gonna come out this looking better than when I was king of my own world."
But noooooooooo...Vegas tore me up like the bitch I was. I wasn't fit to live in their world. I was finally completly broken, humiliated, and ashamed...
Wow, you went to Vegas and came out a broken man? Now that really is remarkable, I can definitely see the hand of God in that one.
QuoteAnd just in case you're wondering, I actually did try to go it alone and fulfill my own ungodly desires once again...and the same thing happned as before...crushed. I basically used up all my get out of jail free cards...I'm a slave to Christ, and I like it here, don't bother trying to break me out
Exactly. Which (again) is why you continue to avoid actually thinking about your beliefs. You like them, so you just ignore the contradictions.
Life can't not happen.
Again - people walk around and meet other people. It's how life works. If you examine, in isolation, the chain of coincidences that lead to you meeting the people you do then many of them will seem incredibly unlikely. But they're really not. If you go to a hospital, you will meet nurses. If it wasn't the one you did meet, it would have been a different nurse, and it would have been just as unlikely that you met that particular one.
No, it's the opposite of humbling, it's unbelievably narcissistic. The idea that the most powerful being in the universe is orchestrating the lives of those around you so that you can get something good. It's the most self centred thing I've ever heard.
What the hell do you mean?
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