moodyskydiver 0 #1 January 11, 2003 I sat down today and took a hard look at how my life is going thus far in 2003.Truthfully,it isnt going well. I just mailed off double payments to my credit cards,paid my truck payment and bought the necessary crap for school (notebooks,paper,pens etc). After getting all of this taken care of I balanced my checkbook...not good. I was going to be at the DZ all weekend having a last-weekend-before-school-starts party session,but it looks like I'll be staying home now.I dont even have enough $ in my account to make one jump.I have just enough to put gas in my truck for school next week.My goals for finishing up my coaching and getting my A license before Spring Break are gone.My hopes to have a helmet,jumpsuit and main for my new rig are now gone. Now I'm worried that I wont have the $ to make next months bills and truck payment.I'm down to the point where I'm looking for things to pawn.I wouldn't be as bad off had I not spent $200+ on a friend for Christmas b/c she had lost her job and had nothing to give her kids for Christmas.She in turn stabbed me in the back and shook my faith in true friendship.So much for trying to do the right thing. 2003 has sucked on the personal front as well.All of my old friends have moved,gotten married,joined the military or betrayed me.None of them have time for me anymore now that they have their own lives to tend to.The only person who is still around is my exfiance Joe, who,when we were together, took advantage of me,lied,stole and generally abused me emotionally,verbally and financially.He did alot more than just that,but I wont go into those details b/c they arent pretty.He has suddenly crept back into my life by regularly calling and emailing.He is slowing positioning himelf in the forefront of my life once again.To my own horror,I'm doing nothing to stop this because I find myself very lonely these days. I'm worried about school.I've been placed on Academic Probation due to my low grades in the last semester.If I do poorly this semester I will lose all of my financial aid and be suspended from the college.I am only taking the minimum credit hours to remain full-time so that I dont over tax myself. I'm still afraid of being weighed down by the amount of work I am required to do for the classes I have this semester.I have registered for Fundamentals of Criminal Law,Court Systems and Practices,American Natl. Government and Sociology. They probably dont sound too bad,but the Criminal Justice course can be fairly rigorous work especially since I will have to do a case study/research assignment from inside one of the Texas prisons. (yes,we actually have to visit a working prison...view procedure,facilities,the death chamber and even the old electric chair that was used before Texas started lethal injection.)This is just one of the first in a long list of interesting learning/training I will be receiving as a Criminal Justice major I'm sure. This is going to be an interesting year.I hope I can survive it and I wish for it to get better. *Sorry for the whining and post whoring.I just needed to vent. "...just an earthbound misfit, I." Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
skygal3 0 #2 January 11, 2003 Oh Moody, cheer up. We are only 10 days into the year!! Seriously now, nothing is ever going to be perfect. Think of everything that you do have because it can always get a lot worse. Your year is going to go however you want it to, you just need to change your perspective. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
CrazyIvan 0 #3 January 11, 2003 Just hang in there, I've been in tougher situations myself, I understand. Remember, If you hit bottom, the only way you have is UP!! __________________________________________ Blue Skies and May the Force be with you. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
mouth 0 #4 January 11, 2003 Maybe you should have waited on the new Mirage. -- Hot Mama At least you know where you stand even if it is in a pile of shit. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
moodyskydiver 0 #5 January 11, 2003 QuoteMaybe you should have waited on the new Mirage. That wasnt really my doing.The rig was a Christmas gift from my family. "...just an earthbound misfit, I." Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
relyon 0 #6 January 11, 2003 Hey there Moody, QuoteI sat down today and took a hard look at how my life is going thus far in 2003.Truthfully,it isnt going well. At the risk of saying some Scarlet O'Hara drippy ass shit, tomorrow will be another day. Probably a better one ... and I'm willing to put my money where my mouth is: Quote... I was going to be at the DZ all weekend having a last-weekend-before-school-starts party session,but it looks like I'll be staying home now.I dont even have enough $ in my account to make one jump. Go make a jump on me. Seriously, if you can cover the cost until I can get it to you, jump. You'll feel much better - you know you will. Hang in there ... this shit will pass. Bob Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
moodyskydiver 0 #7 January 11, 2003 Quote Go make a jump on me. Seriously, if you can cover the cost until I can get it to you, jump. You'll feel much better - you know you will. Thanks,but I'm not going to ask you to do that.I dont have my license yet and I'm still doing coaching,so my jumps are $79 per jump.Thats waaaaay too much for anyone to buy for me.Thank you for the thought and generosity though. "...just an earthbound misfit, I." Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
wingnut 0 #8 January 11, 2003 go to the dz and just hang out... that always chears me up when i can't jump.....lie in the sun in the packing area and relax...everything is better at the dz!!!! the most bestes place to nap and rlax on the planet!!!!!!!! hell go to aggieland and hit on dave!!!! that's free and entertaining all in one..... ______________________________________ "i have no reader's digest version" Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
nws01 0 #9 January 11, 2003 I have not done much in 2003 yet but it is improving. I will be going to Yuma, AZ and packing for the Golden Knights for three months. I will be coming back to Raeford after that and will continue to pack for them during the weekdays and I will jump on weekends. I will finally get my riggers ticket then and I will get my tandem rating by years end. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
sunshine 2 #10 January 11, 2003 I will be with Sebazz by the end of 2003.... ___________________________________________ meow I get a Mike hug! I get a Mike hug! Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
freaksister 0 #11 January 11, 2003 Ah, Amber...I am here for you. You know how I feel right now, too. Let's make sure we keep in touch okay? I miss you. Blues, Sis Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
freakshow 0 #12 January 11, 2003 I completely empathies with how your feeling. Two months or more ago I got a shock when balancing my check book and realized that I didn’t have enough money for my bills let a lone to skydive (the reason I’m at home online on a Friday night)so I mad a hard decision, to take the winter off from diving, which really complicates things because like you I don’t have my license and now I’m not current so when I do have some money and can pick up on my training again I’ll have to make some big steps backwards and spend a substantial amount to get back to where I was at. As far as friends I understand that too when I left my hometown to go to school I found out that a lot of the people who I thought were my friends really weren’t. To make a long story a little shorter the point is the people that are really your friends will be there no matter what, and just know that there are other people going through similar things. I when I was first looking at not being able to skydive right now I was almost heart broken and one of my instructors told me that if skydiving is in your heart (I don’t know you but it seems like it is for you) you’ll finish your training, You’ll make another jump. For now just look forward and dream of the day you get to get back in the sky and know that poeple do care even if they are complete strangers. B.L. (the brain) Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Skystorm 0 #13 January 11, 2003 Hang in there Amber, the year's just started. It may be off to a bad start, but I'll keep you in my prayers to make it better and even a wonderfull year.Hugs. Gene Police: "YOU!! Out of the pool, NOW!!!" Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
skydiver51 0 #14 January 11, 2003 I suggest you go hang out at the DZ anyway. No big deal you can't make a jump. At least you will be with a fun group of people. You know, the people who REALLY are your friends. Not the ones who say they are and turn out not to be. Don't stay home and sulk, GET OUT, go the the DZ and HANG OUT! Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
moodyskydiver 0 #15 January 11, 2003 Thanks guys.I'd like to go to the DZ,but its 2 hours away and I cant even afford that...gas $,food,beer etc.I'm still real new to this DZ and dont really know alot of people yet anyway. "...just an earthbound misfit, I." Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
JJohnson 0 #16 January 11, 2003 Life can't be all that bad if you got a family that loves you enough to give you an awesome container. I hope the rest of your life gets better. Sending you good vibes. JJJJ "Call me Darth Balls" Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
moodyskydiver 0 #17 January 11, 2003 True.Thanks for the thought. "...just an earthbound misfit, I." Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
