nubain1 0 #1 February 1, 2003 As some of you may remember from my posts awhile back about me trying to get back with my ex. Well,after almost 6months of talking to her almost daily.I find out tonight that I am the biggest JACKASS of all time.I talked to her earlier tonight and after a few minutes of conversation,she said for me to call her back later.So, I waited and called her when I said I would.Well,the phone rings 4 times before it's answered.Well, low and behold it was a guy that picked up the phone.I asked for her and of course the reply was "She's busy right now". So,of course the conclusion is,is that she's been leading me on the past few months and has been playing me for the FOOL that I am.I'm so freakin pissed right now.I helped her out when she needed it.I payed for her to go to school,payed to get her lights turned back on after she got layed off from work.Everything.I poured my heart out to her and all she did was grind it up under her heels.I did everything I could to make things up and get back together.Well,it does'nt look like that's happening.I'vr tried to prepare myself for this but it still hurts like hell to thing I've been played like this.My question is..Why could'nt she just tell me she was seeing somebody.Why did I have to be strung along like this?Why was I such a FOOL?So,now it's time to put this behind me and move along.I swear this has been such a bad week I'm scared to go jump tommorow for fear something will happen there.Oh,well.Anybody have any single female friends that are looking for a nice guy?I'm willing to travel for the right woman.I know nice guys finish last and this is my proof for this. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
ChileRelleno 0 #2 February 1, 2003 You've been used(yes it sucks), get over it and get on with your life. ChileRelleno-Rodriguez Bro#414 Hellfish#511,MuffBro#3532,AnvilBro#9, D24868 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
nubain1 0 #3 February 1, 2003 I am getting over it.I've been preparing myself for this for awhile and it's not completly unexpected.It's still a shock when you find out though. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
nubain1 0 #4 February 1, 2003 So,I celebration of my preparing for this and expecting something like this to happen.I'm getting shitfaced.Tonight I will pray to the porcelin god and his cohort the tidy bowl man.Has anybody jumped with a hangover and how did the jump(s) go? Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
nubain1 0 #5 February 1, 2003 So,Seeing as how I'm getting 'faced right now.This will prob lead to a little pw'ing.I've got about 40 more to go befor I hit addict. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
nubain1 0 #6 February 1, 2003 Can somebody explain to me why women are like that?I know not all are like that,so if any ladies read this please don't take offense.This is just a drunken generalization.It is in no way meant to group all women in this category. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
freefallfreak 0 #7 February 1, 2003 Dude, This isn't something new...most people in this world have a bit of greed in them...some just go with the greed more than others. Chill for a while. It gets better. FFF "Upon seeing the shadow of a pigeon, one must resist the urge to look up." Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
nubain1 0 #8 February 1, 2003 QuoteDude, This isn't something new...most people in this world have a bit of greed in them...some just go with the greed more than others. Chill for a while. It gets better. FFF Like I said,I've been expecting this to happen.I just kick myself for trying so hard when I should have listened to the voices in my head.If they would have talked to me when I was drunk then maybe I would have listend to them.But noooooo,THey could'nt speak when I might listen to reason.No,they had to wait till I was sober and could argue with them instead of listening to them.Well,maybe the voices will learn something from this.And that would be...If you want me to listen then talk to me when I'm drunk and can't argue. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
nubain1 0 #9 February 1, 2003 I often wondered why I made the effort, considering I was the one to break off the relationship in the first place.Why was I so stupid to think she would have changed?I had even told her before during one of our frequent arguments when we were together that people don't change unless they have a major life altering event.So why would I think things had changed after being apart for almost 6 months even though I talked to her almost daily. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
sarge 0 #10 February 1, 2003 Clint, I'm not going into this with you right now. I'd like to some other time actually, but try a lot of beer, it always makes me feel better... or number, or whatever...but in a hundred years from now, who's really going to give a shit? certainly not you! Enjoy what is in the moment, cause in a hunred years it too will be gone... .-- I'm done with the personally meaningful and philosophical sigs!! Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Gawain 0 #11 February 1, 2003 QuoteOh,well.Anybody have any single female friends that are looking for a nice guy?I'm willing to travel for the right woman.I know nice guys finish last and this is my proof for this. You won't like my answer, but try staying single for a while, like over six months, no dating, just work, jump, have fun, go out with groups of friends and go home alone. Do this for a while to get comfortable in your own skin again. It may suck, but a saying I like is "You forget about the last one, when you meet the next one." Well, make decision to go without for a while. You need the break.So I try and I scream and I beg and I sigh Just to prove I'm alive, and it's alright 'Cause tonight there's a way I'll make light of my treacherous life Make light! Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
nubain1 0 #12 February 1, 2003 I have alot of beer at the house.I should'nt be drinking all of it right now since it was supposed to go to the dz for all the beer I owe. After tommorow I should finally have my "A".But I'm drinking it right now,so I'm prob gonna get lynched at the dz tommorow for drinking all thier beer.Oh well,it's a chance I'll have to take.Thankfully I'm doing my own packing now.I'd be scared to let a disgruntled packer pack for me after showing up with no beer.I'm over it now.Nothing a little pw'ing has'nt fixed and a lot of beer has'nt hurt either. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
nubain1 0 #13 February 1, 2003 QuoteQuoteOh,well.Anybody have any single female friends that are looking for a nice guy?I'm willing to travel for the right woman.I know nice guys finish last and this is my proof for this. You won't like my answer, but try staying single for a while, like over six months, no dating, just work, jump, have fun, go out with groups of friends and go home alone. Do this for a while to get comfortable in your own skin again. It may suck, but a saying I like is "You forget about the last one, when you meet the next one." Well, make decision to go without for a while. You need the break. I have been single for about 6 mnths now.And I'm ready to move on.I was about to give her the ultimatum anyway.I was going to tell her that i'm tired of waiting.It's gotten easier over time and like I said I had a feelling this was going on.It was just a shock to have it happen like this that's all. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Gawain 0 #14 February 1, 2003 Quote I have been single for about 6 mnths now.And I'm ready to move on. No you haven't, you said yourself you've been talking with her daily, hoping to rekindle the flames. I've been where that's at too, and in hindsight, it's being "single" physically, but emotionally tied to her anyway. Move on, but move on alone (not lonely). Get some perspective, hang with the winners for a while. Choose not to need a woman in your life. You will meet a really neat woman when you aren't expecting it, really. Even better, there won't be any expectations. P.S. When you do meet the next one, don't pay their frickin' bills. *whack* So I try and I scream and I beg and I sigh Just to prove I'm alive, and it's alright 'Cause tonight there's a way I'll make light of my treacherous life Make light! Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
nubain1 0 #15 February 1, 2003 P.S. When you do meet the next one, don't pay their frickin' bills. *whack* Can I get a few more whacks to make sure it sinks in?Maybe use a 2x4 this time instead of your hand.Go ahead knock some sense into me. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Gawain 0 #16 February 1, 2003 Quote Can I get a few more whacks to make sure it sinks in?Maybe use a 2x4 this time instead of your hand.Go ahead knock some sense into me. Even better, simply remember the sting of the feeling you have tonight. If that don't learn ya... So I try and I scream and I beg and I sigh Just to prove I'm alive, and it's alright 'Cause tonight there's a way I'll make light of my treacherous life Make light! Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
nubain1 0 #17 February 1, 2003 Ok,now I'm drinking hot beer.Somone really needs to slap me around for a while. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
freefallfreak 0 #18 February 1, 2003 WHACK. Don't (WHACK) pay (WHACK) their (WHACK) bills (WHACK) any (WHACK) more (WHACK). FFF The more you complain, the longer God makes you live. "Upon seeing the shadow of a pigeon, one must resist the urge to look up." Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
nubain1 0 #19 February 1, 2003 I'm not really feeling a sting right now.To drunk to feel anyything.Just sitting back watching cartoon network and thinking about how bad a week this has been.There's been a lot more going on than this.This was just the topper to everything else that's happened to me.That's why I'm scared to jump tommorow because of all the bad I've had this week. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
nubain1 0 #20 February 1, 2003 QuoteWHACK. Don't (WHACK) pay (WHACK) their (WHACK) bills (WHACK) any (WHACK) more (WHACK). FFF The more you complain, the longer God makes you live. Thank you sir, may I have another? Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
nubain1 0 #21 February 1, 2003 Oh spit!20 more posts and I hit addict! Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
JJohnson 0 #22 February 1, 2003 Tis better to have loved and lost than to have never have loved at all.......... This to shall pass........... Could be worse, she could have your credit card...... Hope you get over it soon and get on with having fun. JJJJ "Call me Darth Balls" Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Gawain 0 #23 February 1, 2003 Quote That's why I'm scared to jump tommorow because of all the bad I've had this week. Okay, now for some real therapy: GO TO THE DZ TOMORROW. HAVE A GEAR CHECK. JUMP FROM AN AIRPLANE. PULL. FLY THE PATTERN. FLARE AND LAND. REPEAT AS NECESSARY UNTIL YOUR REACTION IS: *sigh* That feels good. Seriously, what do you have to be afriad of? You got a ton of friends there waiting to jump with you. Go and jump. So I try and I scream and I beg and I sigh Just to prove I'm alive, and it's alright 'Cause tonight there's a way I'll make light of my treacherous life Make light! Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
nubain1 0 #24 February 1, 2003 Thakfully my credit cards are no more.I have to file backruptcy I'm so far in debt. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
nubain1 0 #25 February 1, 2003 When I do pull, I'm gonna pull high.I've got a new canopy that I've got to learn.But it'll have to be on my second jump since all I have left is to do a hop-n-pop from 3.5. Jumping is one of the things that has helped me get through all this bullshit. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
