PhillyKev 0 #1 January 16, 2004 Ok...don't know if it's the beer or not...I've only had 3 which barely gives me a buzz....but.... Some of you may recall I broke up with my gf in early December. Well, she begged and pleaded and cried and I took her back a week later. Since then, we've had an absolutely amazing, great time together. We've been together almost constantly...I was looking forward to 3 months from now when her lease expires and I ask her to move in with me. Then, out of the blue she dumps me. I was a jerk about something, I admit it, but it wasn't a capital offense and everything had been going so well. I think that the reason she wanted to get back with me was just to wait for me to screw up in some way so that she could dump me. Anyway...it's been killing me for the past week. I've felt so bad and guilty and horrible and pathetic. I've been trying to get her to talk to me, I've sent her flowers, I've left letters for her at work (she doesn't have a phone). The other night she called me and said she wanted to talk. I went over, we talked for a little bit. I asked her if she forgave me and could we move on. She said she didn't know and asked me to come to bed with her (to sleep). And I did. I left the next morning for work and asked her to call me. Haven't heard from her. That was three days ago. And you know what. I just came to an epiphany. It just hit me like a ray of sunshine warming you on a cold day. I'm too good for her. I dumped her before for a multitude of offenses. Why am I so upset now? I love her, always will, that's just how I am...but I have no desire to be with her ever again, for the first time in a month, since I took her back. Just getting shit off my chest. Feel free to ignore this. I just wanted to put it out here so that I can come back and read it in case I falter. I feel good....time to go out and party. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
