Sky memories

[Dagny 0]

...or who else is stuck on the ground looking up?

It has been three months since my last jump. But, unlike the pride one should feel for abstaining from alcohol or drugs for such a period of time, I am hating my "accomplishment". I miss the sky! Those huge puffy clouds that I used to chase and the blue/pink/purple of sunset keep taunting me to go back to Sebastian. And I will. Soon. I think I have a "free" weekend in a few weeks...one which isn't followed by a monday morning exam.

My sky birthday, if you count it from the first jump - tandem, came and went. But, I started AFF september first. I'll be back up there before THAT date passes, I will.

It's not that I felt more alive then when I was jumping than I do now. It's that everything felt more complete. Or something.

I miss that drive to Sebastian, watching the sky, praying it stays clear. Pitching a tent, eating one small meal a day so I had money left over for jumping and beer. Good times then.

School is seriously hitting me hard. I was studying this weekend with a friend while my roommate and her boyfriend went skydiving. I pouted. My friend reminded me that this will all be worth it in the end. She's not a skydiver, but she knows what is to want something you can't have. One day I'll be a doctor, I'll fix people, I'll fix myself by doing the things I love with the money I hope to have soon. But, for now, I sacrifice a bit.

Of all the things that hold me back like the intensity of my education, lack of time, lack of money, a knee injury, the fact that the uspa never mailed me my A card...there are stronger forces pulling me back. I don't know exactly what happens to the body at terminal velocity, but I know what happens to the mind because I've been there.

So, in the meantime, I'll keep cruising dz.com, reading YOUR stories, looking at YOUR pics, and reading about YOUR trials and successes in swooping, freefly, RW. I'll keep fantasizing about the color my jumpsuit will be while I dust off my Z1 yet again. I'll do that for now, but save me a space on the otter because I'm not done making my own stories.

Thanks for keeping my memories vivid...and blue skies!

Take me, I am the drug; take me, I am hallucinogenic.
-Salvador Dali

[cocheese 0]

We're with you Babe. Thanks for choosing to be a doctor.
The sky will be all yours soon. I saw a killer sunset tonight and thought about the power of the sunset load in skydiving... Something to live for to experience again as soon as possible.
You know you aren't alone.
Wishing you happy times while you wait for the sky to kiss you again.

[LuvToFly 0]

Melissa,

I hear ya' and understand your passion for the sport.

Just a few words of advice. Take them for what they're worth. I mention these things because you really seem to miss the sport, and something in your comment hit home.

You would not be the first person to say that you are going to sacrifice now, in order to have good things later. The thing is, there is not always a later.

I have had friends and acquaintances that told me the same thing, then passed away (not from skydiving). They were always talking about how good life was going to be when they retired, got done school, made $100,000 a year, you fill in the blanks. Then, a car accident, an illness, changed all that seemingly overnight.

What I am saying is that you have absolutely no guarantee whatsover that you will even still be here tomorrow morning. As a future doctor, that probably hits home.

So what I AM saying? If it means that much to you, find a way to jump - keep your foot in the door as if it was your only chance to do so - because all of one's plans can come unraveled in an instant. I've seen it happen, and for me, at least, it has really taught me to live in this very moment, and not assume I will have the next one.

"The helicopter approaches closer than any other to fulfillment
of mankind's ancient dreams of a magic carpet" - Igor Sikorsky

[Lindsey 0]

Damn Dagny..... I totally and completely understand your frustration. I did not jump at all in my 2nd and 3rd years of school. It sucks. I also let myself get sucked in a very rotten direction in other ways. It's weird reading your post and thinking that that's EXACTLY how I felt 2 years ago. Hang in there. Medical school isn't easy, and it shouldn't be. There are lots of days of jumping ahead, though..... Girl...for now just learn all you can.

Peace~
linz

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A conservative is just a liberal who's been mugged. A liberal is just a conservative who's been to jail

[Ncrowe 0]

Skydiver, Med School student, lives in fort lauderdale! Woo hoo I think i'm in love!!

"Don't Mess Around With the Guy in Shades- Oh No!!! "

[Shawndiver 0]

Dagny,
Its a good thing to sacrifice a bit to make your dreams! It may be a bitch now, but when you reach those goals you will know that it was worth it. I won't tell you tomorrow may never come, but remember, everything in moderation, including moderation! (Ok, its a good thing to pull out all the stops every once in awhile...) You asked mea few months ago in the chat room if I would jump with you when I come out to Sebastian, and I plan to hold you to it!
Shawn

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[skybytch 273]

Yeah girl, you better get yer butt out to Sebastian soon.

See, there's this box in the back of my shop. It has some cool stuff in it. And it's calling your name...

[PrairieDoug 0]

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Skydiver, Med School student, lives in fort lauderdale! Woo hoo I think i'm in love!!

You forgot to add babeliciously gorgeous (based on her avatar photo).

[kai2k1 0]

I was wondering what happened to you. Im glad that youre doing ok. Get through school and when you get a break get back in the air.

The sky will wait for you. Med school wont. Good luck and be safe.

There's no truer sense of flying than sky diving," Scott Cowan

[Stacy 0]

Come back soon! I miss my Mexican child!!!

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