Just broke,when were your worst part of life?

[peacefuljeffrey 0]

Man, I'm very sorry to hear that news. I offer you my sympathy. That's a hard thing to take, and the way she did it seems really callous.

Please know that it reflects mostly on HER that she would do that to you. It shows her to be, maybe, not the kind of person who is worth having you.

I want you to know also that what you are going through -- puking up your food and being all wretched in the stomach -- is so completely normal that it should actually reassure you. (It helps you to know that what you're going through, other people have gone through.

It may be painful to get yourself going again, but you just have to go and live your life the way your normally would and do the things you normally would do. It means you have force yourself to just let time go by normally. Time may seem like it's going by at a crawl for you at this point. When this kind of feeling has hit me before, I just had to occupy my mind with other things and wait for time to go by.

I wish you luck and support.

-Jeffrey

-Jeffrey
"With tha thoughts of a militant mind... Hard line, hard line after hard line!"

[Zenister 0]

get out and play, do the things that you love (even if they dont seem so cool anymore) and dont look back... the bastards are not worth it and all the bitter recrimination thoughts that go through your head about them only throw good energy after bad...

some people are scum it's times like this that let you know who your real friends are..

its hard to do.. but cutaway and move on... your life will be better for it

edit: this was mine... some days i'm still pissed, not really because of what happened (i'm over that) but because the fall out from that completely changed the direction i was planning on going and now one of the most beautiful places on earth is off limits (self imposed choice because i know myself well enough to know i'd do something vicious when the opportunity presented itself and i dont want to be that person) to me

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Those who fail to learn from the past are simply Doomed.

[Zennie 0]

PM sent.

Listen to the folks here. They are steering you right. There are so many good nuggets in here that I couldn't possibly list them all. But I think the key points are:

1. You are NOT a failure. So shut up with that.
2. A "life housecleaning" is a good thing. Hang out with your real friends. Change homes, change jobs. I didn't finally reach a point of no longer needing anti-depressants until the last vestige of my previous life... my job... was gone. Now everything is new and nothing is still around to haunt or remind me.
3. Be good to yourself and do things for YOU.. no one else.
4. Don't run from the pain. Like many other folks I developed a pretty serious alcohol problem trying to just numb myself and escape a bit. All that does is make things worse. Your pain is YOURS. Accept it, embrace it, take ownership of it.
5. Remember that you have many, many people here who care about you very much and are here for you when you're feeling down.

Peace bro...

- Z
"Always be yourself... unless you suck." - Joss Whedon

[Thijs 0]

The worst part of my life, I'm going through it right now I guess.

I'm a failure in university, I recently hurted my back and was diagnosted with minor rheumatics (very nice for someone of only nearly 18 ), no-one ever visits me at my room at university, hughs me, call me, or whatever.

I'm not normal anymore. I don't like small places, and I'm doing caving (and believe me, belgian caves are small!). I recently had to do a climb up a space so small I could just turn my head in it. After I climbed out of it (it took me more then twenty minutes to do it and the space was barely more then two meters high) I said never again. Hell, 15 minutes later I was doing it again I don't know, it is just the fear that atracts me to do this. It gives me such an intense feeling, something I don't get anywhere else...

I don't like to go out to a party or so anymore, so I don't do it anymore. It just feels that I waste my time there and my money when I get back home.
I feel very uncomfortable around people, I rarely say anything in a conversation, I'm starting to hide the fact that I want to skydive and basejump just because I'm afraid of the reactions of people.

I don't smoke, don't drink, don't take drugs (except adrenaline) and don't really have a reason to live anymore.
basejumping (well, at least the thaugt that I might ever do it) is one of the only things I life for, and the thing that has kept me from killing myself a couple of times (don't worry, I don't have the balls to do it).
Hell, what kind of crap am I telling here I should keep my trouble with myself.

I don't really know exatly how you feel Stefan, I never had a relationship and never been in love so. Hell, I don't even want one, it just scares me so much
I now look like shit (well, it is a constant factor in my life ) and feel like shit too (hopefully it will go over)

All I can advise is go do something you have never been able to do, but always wanted to do so much. That works for me atleast...

Edit to add: My thoughts are with you man, since everyday I have to pass the sportsdepartment at university, which is called, FaBeR